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Aren't rainy days suppose to be all happy and splashy and what not....well lately its been the complete opposite for me.....Its one of my best friends....we haven't been speaking lately for what we both feel that it’s each other at fault....and can’t stop thinking that I was more at fault...have you ever missed something or someone that you see every day....well that’s just how I feel, Its a heartbreaker......I miss her so much and she is just at arms reach. Her and me have been like best friends for a while now...she has been the only constant thing in my life un till now.....we have been there for each other for so many occasions....she would call me late at night...wake my ass up...to talk about her issues...and I would happily listen.....the worst part is that I’m getting adjusted to not speaking to her to me......which is not good. If it gets to that I know that I’m not going to do anything about it.....and she will slowly but surely fade away...like so many have in the past....become ghost to ones life....were they really there.....or is it just my imagination? I don’t want it to get there with her... I love her so much...I would pick her over my sister...that is how close we once were. We started drifting way before this ever happened.....people change right??....I mean people go through different stages in life, where they change and get adapted to the new lifestyle leaving antiques behind....maybe she was going through a stage where she didn’t need me as much anymore...she had found some else to talk to her about her problems...i was fading away...I didn’t understand if she would leave me stranded on purpose sometimes...or if she just simply forgot...and a ride somewhere was the next best option....she disappointed me over and over again....this last time her superficiality disappointed me too, and it got to me....well.....she had written me a letter....intended to better our friendship.....i wrote one back...maybe it was harsh...i can’t even remember...point being that i called her that night and left a message with her sister to call me back....she never did...i called her sister today to verify if she had given the message....I mean....I did try...I called.....i wanted things to get better......apparently she was upset with me.....again...can’t help thinking...I TRIED.....will things stay like this?... Or will we become ghost in each others lives...or will things get better....time will decide