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As the school year closes and another will begin within a short amount of time, I've been faced with the all-too-intrusive question: so what do you want to do for the rest of your life? People automatically assume that since my major is English, that I want to be a teacher. They don't realize the broad category it it and the massive amount of options that are available to English grads.
I hate this question. I do. And I'm sure that I'm not the only college student that does...how many of us actually know exactly what they're going to do after receiving their Bachelor's degree? I mean, part of me is so damn excited to be done with it and to have something to remind me of all that I've achieved...but I'm really starting to feel the pressure. Being the first in your family, including cousins, aunts, grandparents, and all, to graduate from a university makes you a really big fucking deal. I realized this when talking to a friend in my class who is graduating after the fall quarter and isn't even walking because it's not such a big deal in her family...everyone has a degree. Just realizing that, that my whole family would kill me if I didn't walk, puts the pressure on.
I guess I'm just scared of graduating and then failing. Of climbing up so freaking high and then jumping off this cliff and falling flat on my face. That's my worse fear. What if I get this degree and end up working in a bookstore for the rest of my life? What if I never find something that I enjoy?
All these what ifs have been floating in my mind and I can't shake them. I don't know what I want to do. I don't know if I want to go to grad school, I kinda want to take a break from school work for a while and see how I do in the real world. My whole life has revolved around school and it's really wearing me down.
I dunno, I always seem to get this way during this time of year, when all these graduations are going on and I can't wait to get my degree and I hope I find an awesome career that I love and that I can be super great at and I hope that this is just the beginning to a great life.
I hate this question. I do. And I'm sure that I'm not the only college student that does...how many of us actually know exactly what they're going to do after receiving their Bachelor's degree? I mean, part of me is so damn excited to be done with it and to have something to remind me of all that I've achieved...but I'm really starting to feel the pressure. Being the first in your family, including cousins, aunts, grandparents, and all, to graduate from a university makes you a really big fucking deal. I realized this when talking to a friend in my class who is graduating after the fall quarter and isn't even walking because it's not such a big deal in her family...everyone has a degree. Just realizing that, that my whole family would kill me if I didn't walk, puts the pressure on.
I guess I'm just scared of graduating and then failing. Of climbing up so freaking high and then jumping off this cliff and falling flat on my face. That's my worse fear. What if I get this degree and end up working in a bookstore for the rest of my life? What if I never find something that I enjoy?
All these what ifs have been floating in my mind and I can't shake them. I don't know what I want to do. I don't know if I want to go to grad school, I kinda want to take a break from school work for a while and see how I do in the real world. My whole life has revolved around school and it's really wearing me down.
I dunno, I always seem to get this way during this time of year, when all these graduations are going on and I can't wait to get my degree and I hope I find an awesome career that I love and that I can be super great at and I hope that this is just the beginning to a great life.