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Myspace is broken and I feel like ranting.
I miss cool music.
My life is amazing. If I can be so fucking lucky Idk why everyone else cant be. I dont know why I deserve this. its not karma- theres a lot better people than me. maybe this all will blow up in my face. I keep pressing shift but only half my words come out capitalized and idc. at amandas party were gonna make smores. Its gonna be so much funn. Missy white is gonna be there. I keep forgetting she knows people. Chris is amazing. idk why he settled for me but Im so glad he did. last night he called me beautiful once and I didnt even notice but he felt bad for saying it. i love him for respecting things that I say. we were talking about like, 'stfu and make me a sandwich' and he said he wouldnt ever say that to me-unless he really wanted a sandwich. I think i like that lol. I kinda feel like Ima slut when im with him though. I was talking to caitlin farmer in science and like, shes a decent person yknow. shes sat beside me through the whole year. I dont think its fair that Ive had better relationships than she has. sure she kinda looks like a skeleton with dead hair and bulgy eyes...but somebodys gotta dig that, right? missy white is really pretty. I think i like girls her size lol. she has such pretty eyes. and even though shes not skinny by any means she carries herself so well. like, talking to her is like talking to a really skinny girl lol. I dont see why were so concerned about size at this point. the human race is screwed anyway. Ive lost weight since I started dating chris-and weve only been dating a week. that really scares me. I dont think about food when Im thinking about him so I dont eat. This morning I was only fucking 117 pounds. I think this weekend Im gonna eat a shitload so that Ill be back to my normal weight. i think i like having a flat stomach but it makes my shirts fit weird. mrs maultsby is so cool. I wish her class was better. If I had you and all my girls in there it would be so much fun. She says she wants to offer a creative writing class as an elective and if she ever did I might take it just to have a class with her as a teacher. Jesus christ I cant even finish a bowl of cereal. wtf is wrong with me.
I miss cool music.
My life is amazing. If I can be so fucking lucky Idk why everyone else cant be. I dont know why I deserve this. its not karma- theres a lot better people than me. maybe this all will blow up in my face. I keep pressing shift but only half my words come out capitalized and idc. at amandas party were gonna make smores. Its gonna be so much funn. Missy white is gonna be there. I keep forgetting she knows people. Chris is amazing. idk why he settled for me but Im so glad he did. last night he called me beautiful once and I didnt even notice but he felt bad for saying it. i love him for respecting things that I say. we were talking about like, 'stfu and make me a sandwich' and he said he wouldnt ever say that to me-unless he really wanted a sandwich. I think i like that lol. I kinda feel like Ima slut when im with him though. I was talking to caitlin farmer in science and like, shes a decent person yknow. shes sat beside me through the whole year. I dont think its fair that Ive had better relationships than she has. sure she kinda looks like a skeleton with dead hair and bulgy eyes...but somebodys gotta dig that, right? missy white is really pretty. I think i like girls her size lol. she has such pretty eyes. and even though shes not skinny by any means she carries herself so well. like, talking to her is like talking to a really skinny girl lol. I dont see why were so concerned about size at this point. the human race is screwed anyway. Ive lost weight since I started dating chris-and weve only been dating a week. that really scares me. I dont think about food when Im thinking about him so I dont eat. This morning I was only fucking 117 pounds. I think this weekend Im gonna eat a shitload so that Ill be back to my normal weight. i think i like having a flat stomach but it makes my shirts fit weird. mrs maultsby is so cool. I wish her class was better. If I had you and all my girls in there it would be so much fun. She says she wants to offer a creative writing class as an elective and if she ever did I might take it just to have a class with her as a teacher. Jesus christ I cant even finish a bowl of cereal. wtf is wrong with me.