All parting tongues
The fact that I don't consider myself to be very much this side of attractive apparently pisses some people off. It's not an act, I swear. It's not an attempt to get validation from people who have only seen pictures of me at the angles I choose for them to see me. That would be kind of hollow, you know? And I'm a lot of things, but hollow has yet to be added to that list.
It's really because I don't see myself as pretty or hot or, dear god help us all, beautiful. That's kind of just the way of it. I'm the slightly pudgy, braces needing, goofy looking chick that's everyone's friend. These things, in my learned opinion, do not amount to beautiful, or sexy or pretty or... whatever.
Cute? I get. In the puppyish sense. I even do that full body wiggle thing when I'm excited. But that's pretty much it. I think my personality is positively sparkling, though. So that's gotta be worth something. I find all the best ways to be arrogant, da? :)
However-- and I sorta think it's the biggest load of suckish suck that this feeling has even crawled into my brainspace in the first place-- I wouldn't mind just once being mistaken for something interesting on a purely superficial level. Yeah yeah, I know. Superficial. But I'd like once not to be an "Eh, her looks are a 6, but her personality's a 9.5" girl.
Though, you know, that smacks of a little perfectionism.
*rolls eyes*
It's really because I don't see myself as pretty or hot or, dear god help us all, beautiful. That's kind of just the way of it. I'm the slightly pudgy, braces needing, goofy looking chick that's everyone's friend. These things, in my learned opinion, do not amount to beautiful, or sexy or pretty or... whatever.
Cute? I get. In the puppyish sense. I even do that full body wiggle thing when I'm excited. But that's pretty much it. I think my personality is positively sparkling, though. So that's gotta be worth something. I find all the best ways to be arrogant, da? :)
However-- and I sorta think it's the biggest load of suckish suck that this feeling has even crawled into my brainspace in the first place-- I wouldn't mind just once being mistaken for something interesting on a purely superficial level. Yeah yeah, I know. Superficial. But I'd like once not to be an "Eh, her looks are a 6, but her personality's a 9.5" girl.
Though, you know, that smacks of a little perfectionism.
*rolls eyes*