This is where I will begin....
I am attempting to go below the surface of things. Can I tell the truth from the things they say? Can this girl rise above all that I lay in front of myself. I am not concerned with the answers of 'this is just the way things go', I am looking for more than that. I push the things that I really need to do aside. Procrastination is my own undoing. Is that I am too afraid to face my demons? Just as well it could be I am looking them in the face and in some twisted way liking what I see? I need to just go! Do the things I want to and need to do be where ever it is that I love. But instead I hesitate....
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And so the next time they want to know where the anger comes from... tell them it just comes...
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So now I am going to finish up my applications for this summer that I have been putting off doing for about three months, truthfully its been that long. And tomorrow I am going to work at finding another job before I good to work. I will not sleep in till one in the afternoon. I am going to end this, pushing the things I don't want to do away till they become to large for me. I will be proud of my life, I will like the things I see around me just not inside of me. I am going to awake from dreams I am dreaming and they will come true in some shape or another....
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And so the next time they want to know where the anger comes from... tell them it just comes...
.
.
.
So now I am going to finish up my applications for this summer that I have been putting off doing for about three months, truthfully its been that long. And tomorrow I am going to work at finding another job before I good to work. I will not sleep in till one in the afternoon. I am going to end this, pushing the things I don't want to do away till they become to large for me. I will be proud of my life, I will like the things I see around me just not inside of me. I am going to awake from dreams I am dreaming and they will come true in some shape or another....