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I decided I just need to bite the bullet and POST THINGS. It's ridiculous that I never update!
1) Since my last post, I have actually made up my mind: I am going to go to grad school for education. Specialization is up in the air for the moment, specifically because there is a scholarship/grant thing from the government if you go for specific topics and promise to work for four years in a needy area, but IDK the chances of me getting in to the program (I think everything that requires application should be required to show you at least your numerical chances of being accepted. Am I one of four hundred applicants going for two hundred spots? Fifty spots? GIVE ME AN IDEA) and I can't take the GRE until I actually earn some money so that I can afford to take it, but decisions have been made and a plan of sorts is in place.
2) As such I've been substituting at the Catholic school again and oh, teaching. It's not stressful at all!
3) I am suffering from fandom ennui. It's not that I don't want to be involved, it's that I open tabs with things to participate in and I just can't think of anything to contribute, or I can't muster up any creativity up to write anything, and it's awful. I don't think it's because I'm now involved in other fandoms (and by 'involved' I mean I reblog things on tumblr and read fics.) I want to be enthused! I want to participate! It's certainly not a lack of ardor, because I still love all my fandom things as much as I ever did, it's just the interaction (on the internet what even) that is tripping me up.
4) Speaking of loving things ardently: HG/Myka. It's like my entire soul is being either enveloped by a rainbow of joy and wonder and magic or brutally sledgehammered into oblivion. It's ridiculous. Also, I'm finally almost completely caught up on Warehouse 13 and this fucking show making me feel things. I don't even.
5) Dragon*Con happened and I missed it and, more than ever, I wish that there was a Fangirlia where we could all live and be happy and fannish all the time and within walking distance of one another because it is terrible being so far from people I hold dear.
1) Since my last post, I have actually made up my mind: I am going to go to grad school for education. Specialization is up in the air for the moment, specifically because there is a scholarship/grant thing from the government if you go for specific topics and promise to work for four years in a needy area, but IDK the chances of me getting in to the program (I think everything that requires application should be required to show you at least your numerical chances of being accepted. Am I one of four hundred applicants going for two hundred spots? Fifty spots? GIVE ME AN IDEA) and I can't take the GRE until I actually earn some money so that I can afford to take it, but decisions have been made and a plan of sorts is in place.
2) As such I've been substituting at the Catholic school again and oh, teaching. It's not stressful at all!
3) I am suffering from fandom ennui. It's not that I don't want to be involved, it's that I open tabs with things to participate in and I just can't think of anything to contribute, or I can't muster up any creativity up to write anything, and it's awful. I don't think it's because I'm now involved in other fandoms (and by 'involved' I mean I reblog things on tumblr and read fics.) I want to be enthused! I want to participate! It's certainly not a lack of ardor, because I still love all my fandom things as much as I ever did, it's just the interaction (on the internet what even) that is tripping me up.
4) Speaking of loving things ardently: HG/Myka. It's like my entire soul is being either enveloped by a rainbow of joy and wonder and magic or brutally sledgehammered into oblivion. It's ridiculous. Also, I'm finally almost completely caught up on Warehouse 13 and this fucking show making me feel things. I don't even.
5) Dragon*Con happened and I missed it and, more than ever, I wish that there was a Fangirlia where we could all live and be happy and fannish all the time and within walking distance of one another because it is terrible being so far from people I hold dear.