Painful Growing

[sunshine786]

I use to LOVE Thursdays, it was my favorite day of the week. Now, I dread them. Well ok I dont dread them, but its been 3 weeks since Ben broke up with me (he did it 3 weeks ago if you dont get what im saying here). Anyway, today is up and down. I only had one class today, my other 2 got canceled. I was excited but kinda sad at the same time

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[renbird]

bless you baby girl...

[pensiveowl]

Yes, that overwhelming grief used to just smack me right in the middle of the head out of nowhere. I would be happy and not thinking about Kevin and then *blam* there it would be. Something would remind me, or I would see him, or I would NOT see him, or I wouldn't hear from him, etc. We had the kind of situation where I could call him, though, and remind myself why I wasn't with him. You should just call Ben out of the blue - let him answer and be an asshole - and then you'll be reminded as to why you're not with him now. But anyway, I also found songs difficult to endure and went through a period of about 2 months where I didn't turn the radio on in the car unless it was NPR. Kept myself safe that way. Music was the worst, I think, next to the bed. But I got rid of the bed....