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Have you ever cared so much that it only forces you into a constant state of apathy? Irony fascinates me. I think going to Connecticut next year, being in an environment where I must experience change and newness and freshness and inconsistency, and where I have no choice but to separate myself from any preconceived notions, will be so good for me. I’m taking the biggest risk I’ve ever made, and I’m doing everything in my power not to worry about things, but the fact is, I’m so scared-- not scared of the college experience (cause trust me, I’m sooo ready), but I’m scared of leaving these 18 years of my life and what I’ve built up in myself and the relationships I have. I feel as if it’s all gone to waste. But then again, this will be so much of an adventure. I love it and hate it at the same time. But it’s definitely time, and I couldn’t be happier with my choice of a college.