whatever, yo
For some reason, life just hasn't felt entirely fulfilling lately. Which is unfortunate, because I'm really trying to enjoy the short amount of time I have left in college. It's like I go in and out of each day as a zombie, not really hating what I'm doing, but not really loving it either. I haven't felt incredibly excited about anything in a very long time and that is kind of depressing. The amount of stress and busy-ness of the days is really starting to eat away all the optimism I have about life.
There is also this guy (what's new, that is usually the reason behind most of my woes) who I just can't figure out. Juuuussttt when I've given up hope that he'll ever call again and I think I'm okay with it and moved on, BAM! he calls. And because I'm weak, and because I like him, I can't say no when he asks to do something or go somewhere. It's almost as if I can foresee my own future but can do nothing to stop it because I feel so incredibly vulnerable right now. I don't even know if that makes any sense. I know things are going to end badly - I don't want them to, which is the reason I hold out hope. That's my problem - I'm too nice and I'm too hopeful. I just want to be happy.
I also don't think anyone actually reads this, but really, most people probably have no idea what I'm talking about anyway.
Lesson of the day: Don't hold such an optimistic view of the world, be so forgiving of people, and believe that people are always genuine. Cause they're not.
There is also this guy (what's new, that is usually the reason behind most of my woes) who I just can't figure out. Juuuussttt when I've given up hope that he'll ever call again and I think I'm okay with it and moved on, BAM! he calls. And because I'm weak, and because I like him, I can't say no when he asks to do something or go somewhere. It's almost as if I can foresee my own future but can do nothing to stop it because I feel so incredibly vulnerable right now. I don't even know if that makes any sense. I know things are going to end badly - I don't want them to, which is the reason I hold out hope. That's my problem - I'm too nice and I'm too hopeful. I just want to be happy.
I also don't think anyone actually reads this, but really, most people probably have no idea what I'm talking about anyway.
Lesson of the day: Don't hold such an optimistic view of the world, be so forgiving of people, and believe that people are always genuine. Cause they're not.