defunct diary
It's been almost a year since I last posted? I guess I miss the fact that LJ is sort of personal and sort of public. It's like being putting on a happy face yet secretly wishing someone would still notice that you're down. Everyone likes to pretend that things are under control but we all like to know that someone sees through it and has concern.
It's been a good year thus far but because of recent events, I'm sadder than I have been all year. I found love and he moved away. I bought a house, I'm going to Vegas for the second time this year, I got to cross numerous things off my list of things to do... but none of it means anything when you lose the thing that you want most. There's no point in trying to recount the past ten months, especially since this is mostly for me. I just secretly wish someone would notice.
It's been a good year thus far but because of recent events, I'm sadder than I have been all year. I found love and he moved away. I bought a house, I'm going to Vegas for the second time this year, I got to cross numerous things off my list of things to do... but none of it means anything when you lose the thing that you want most. There's no point in trying to recount the past ten months, especially since this is mostly for me. I just secretly wish someone would notice.