strange bedfellows
Feeling a little bit lonely again.
I just felt the urge to lay down with someone, just curl up. I kind of regret not living on campus here because of a lack of communication and intimacy with people. It would have been nice to have clicked with a roommate, and just be able to be silly and close. What I want reminds me of what Hillary has with one of her friends, I can't even remember her name, maybe its her roommate, maybe not, but someone who lives near her or something. Heh, maybe thats just Hillary. When I think about napping with somebody or cuddling, just for the sake of closeness I think of her or Ashley.
I feel like I'm portraying this kind of persona; the person who went back to college and is more concerned with studying and going to class than with the typical "college experience" of people, sororities, parties, clubs, whatever. I feel like thats what I look like from the outside. I feel like this is what people here think of me. Its partly true.
I feel more and more isolated as I leave highschool behind. People I used to see everyday have moved, moved on. I like that community. That goes for YRUU also. Now there aren't nearly as many events. I should be moving into the college mindframe, but socially, I'm having difficulty. I partly don't *want* to leave highschool and YRUU behind. And having made little difference in my friendship/intro back into the AC community in the few months I've been back at school . . . well. I'm partly to blame. Maybe completely.
Companionship
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I admire Paul's newfound spirit/outlook.
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I bought my first lotto ticket today! I'm super excited. I really need that blast of reality to hit soon (and it will, on the drawing on Friday. Woot!).
I just felt the urge to lay down with someone, just curl up. I kind of regret not living on campus here because of a lack of communication and intimacy with people. It would have been nice to have clicked with a roommate, and just be able to be silly and close. What I want reminds me of what Hillary has with one of her friends, I can't even remember her name, maybe its her roommate, maybe not, but someone who lives near her or something. Heh, maybe thats just Hillary. When I think about napping with somebody or cuddling, just for the sake of closeness I think of her or Ashley.
I feel like I'm portraying this kind of persona; the person who went back to college and is more concerned with studying and going to class than with the typical "college experience" of people, sororities, parties, clubs, whatever. I feel like thats what I look like from the outside. I feel like this is what people here think of me. Its partly true.
I feel more and more isolated as I leave highschool behind. People I used to see everyday have moved, moved on. I like that community. That goes for YRUU also. Now there aren't nearly as many events. I should be moving into the college mindframe, but socially, I'm having difficulty. I partly don't *want* to leave highschool and YRUU behind. And having made little difference in my friendship/intro back into the AC community in the few months I've been back at school . . . well. I'm partly to blame. Maybe completely.
Companionship
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I admire Paul's newfound spirit/outlook.
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I bought my first lotto ticket today! I'm super excited. I really need that blast of reality to hit soon (and it will, on the drawing on Friday. Woot!).