What am I to you?
I guess you never really know what people really think of you.
You can't read their mind and see yourself exactly as they see you.
Sometimes I can't understand why some people stick by me and love me no matter what. And sometimes I can't understand how someone can have so much hatred without me actually doing anything - i mean if i stabbed you or something i'd kinda justify the hate.
It's funny - I don't really feel hate anymore. I dislike certain people - but only because they're behaving like spoiled brats and they are being irrational.
I guess it's because no-one has really hurt me - not intentionally - and if they're tried they've failed miserably.
And because I have so many good people around me. THe ones who pick me up whenever I'm not feeling right - the ones who will listen to me when I need to rant - and understand that it's just part of my irrational dizzyness. And it's my way of coping.
When you have a support system like I have - you know everything will be alright in the end because they are there to hold my hand and to eat ice cream with and hug me when I need it.
Hayley Files:
My baby angel. Sometimes I just want to wrap her up and keep her safe from all the nobheads - and from the insecurities that have been planted in her head. She's truely special and she's always there for me no matter how stupid i'm being!
Angela Roberts:
My equal. So many of her thoughts echo my own. Whist everyone listens to me - she honestly understands how i'm feeling and why I act the way I do - because she does it too. And because she recognises the same traits in herself - she can tell me how to stop being stupid. I know I can carry on when she's around.
Alex Barnham:
My little dancing queen. She's so down to earth. Just wants to have fun - whilst at the same time she's so happy with Ed. They are the original married couple - and there is nothing that can stop them loving each other. She's my faith. How to be with the person you want to be with - and not behave like a complete psycho. She knows how to love and how to balance the equation.
Jo:
She only wandered into my life a few weeks ago - and already she shares my laughter and my tears. She understands and listens and we plot together! Someone I know is special.
Nikki:
Such a nice person - she doesn't dislike anyone - and worries about everyone. A complete sweetheart who deserves the very best.
Clare Atkinson:
Not around much as she's looking after her precious little boy. But still someone who cares so much about people - she's been there through the worst times and if anyone put up with my rants about boys - Clare got twice as much - and listened. And offered good advice - and bitched about the new girlfriends.
With girls like this in my life I know that everything will be ok. As long as we look after each other - the laughter will continue through the tears.
And thats whats important - the laughter - lets keep it coming.
lora x
You can't read their mind and see yourself exactly as they see you.
Sometimes I can't understand why some people stick by me and love me no matter what. And sometimes I can't understand how someone can have so much hatred without me actually doing anything - i mean if i stabbed you or something i'd kinda justify the hate.
It's funny - I don't really feel hate anymore. I dislike certain people - but only because they're behaving like spoiled brats and they are being irrational.
I guess it's because no-one has really hurt me - not intentionally - and if they're tried they've failed miserably.
And because I have so many good people around me. THe ones who pick me up whenever I'm not feeling right - the ones who will listen to me when I need to rant - and understand that it's just part of my irrational dizzyness. And it's my way of coping.
When you have a support system like I have - you know everything will be alright in the end because they are there to hold my hand and to eat ice cream with and hug me when I need it.
Hayley Files:
My baby angel. Sometimes I just want to wrap her up and keep her safe from all the nobheads - and from the insecurities that have been planted in her head. She's truely special and she's always there for me no matter how stupid i'm being!
Angela Roberts:
My equal. So many of her thoughts echo my own. Whist everyone listens to me - she honestly understands how i'm feeling and why I act the way I do - because she does it too. And because she recognises the same traits in herself - she can tell me how to stop being stupid. I know I can carry on when she's around.
Alex Barnham:
My little dancing queen. She's so down to earth. Just wants to have fun - whilst at the same time she's so happy with Ed. They are the original married couple - and there is nothing that can stop them loving each other. She's my faith. How to be with the person you want to be with - and not behave like a complete psycho. She knows how to love and how to balance the equation.
Jo:
She only wandered into my life a few weeks ago - and already she shares my laughter and my tears. She understands and listens and we plot together! Someone I know is special.
Nikki:
Such a nice person - she doesn't dislike anyone - and worries about everyone. A complete sweetheart who deserves the very best.
Clare Atkinson:
Not around much as she's looking after her precious little boy. But still someone who cares so much about people - she's been there through the worst times and if anyone put up with my rants about boys - Clare got twice as much - and listened. And offered good advice - and bitched about the new girlfriends.
With girls like this in my life I know that everything will be ok. As long as we look after each other - the laughter will continue through the tears.
And thats whats important - the laughter - lets keep it coming.
lora x