SWEET!!
sweet... i just fixed my journal! im a G NE US! lol.... not really im just slow.
so yah... i have alot of stuff bottled up inside me that i would almost like to post on here... but i have a fear of letting people in and letting people know who i really am and what i really think and feel. so for now.... i cannot because i am afraid of who will read it and what questions they will ask....... so rite now im just going to list goals....
1. start AND actually FINISH! summer reading... (my problem with this being that i got addicted to harry potter again.)
2. try to actually follow the rules my father has set up for cleaning and such even tho they infuriate me..... because my realationship with him...... well lets just say thats a whole nother entry.
3. try not to feel so much anger about the "community service" im doing... i know in the bottom of my heart i would be bored out of my mind if i didnt do it....
4. hmmmm CLEAN MY DAMN ROOM! havent done that in WAY to long. its really messy... should do that today actually.
5. work on my french... i know im not in school or anything. and im not sure how im going to do this but... it needs to be done otherwise i will lose all knowledge and have to drop AP french... which nicole probebly wont let me do anyway... and i dont want to because i love french. i just hate my teacher.. AHHH
6. do something artistic... i havent done that in a while.
7. let my mother into my life more. seems to be going ok for val.
8. well the job thing should be a goal... as i promised the family i would get a job. but somehow it just seems like it would suck the fun right out of summer. and make it more stressful than it has already managed to make itself. im afraid it would ruin it.
9. get up at a normal time... i had to get up at 7:30 the other day because i had to take my brother somewhere and it wasnt that bad... prolly cuz ive been getting so much sleep. but, then today i slept until 2. soooo yah. i set my alarm i swear! and i tell myself to get up but then i just shut it off cuz i figure.. what the hell am i gona do once i get up??
10. ok im done... but i just need to relax... its like almost as if because there is a minimal amount of drama, i seem to almost make a bigger deal out of smaller things just to not have something to do but... do ya no wut i mean?
ok thats it.... hope your having a wonderful summer and....
YOU DO KNOW WHAT TOMARROW IS DONT YOU???????
so yah... i have alot of stuff bottled up inside me that i would almost like to post on here... but i have a fear of letting people in and letting people know who i really am and what i really think and feel. so for now.... i cannot because i am afraid of who will read it and what questions they will ask....... so rite now im just going to list goals....
1. start AND actually FINISH! summer reading... (my problem with this being that i got addicted to harry potter again.)
2. try to actually follow the rules my father has set up for cleaning and such even tho they infuriate me..... because my realationship with him...... well lets just say thats a whole nother entry.
3. try not to feel so much anger about the "community service" im doing... i know in the bottom of my heart i would be bored out of my mind if i didnt do it....
4. hmmmm CLEAN MY DAMN ROOM! havent done that in WAY to long. its really messy... should do that today actually.
5. work on my french... i know im not in school or anything. and im not sure how im going to do this but... it needs to be done otherwise i will lose all knowledge and have to drop AP french... which nicole probebly wont let me do anyway... and i dont want to because i love french. i just hate my teacher.. AHHH
6. do something artistic... i havent done that in a while.
7. let my mother into my life more. seems to be going ok for val.
8. well the job thing should be a goal... as i promised the family i would get a job. but somehow it just seems like it would suck the fun right out of summer. and make it more stressful than it has already managed to make itself. im afraid it would ruin it.
9. get up at a normal time... i had to get up at 7:30 the other day because i had to take my brother somewhere and it wasnt that bad... prolly cuz ive been getting so much sleep. but, then today i slept until 2. soooo yah. i set my alarm i swear! and i tell myself to get up but then i just shut it off cuz i figure.. what the hell am i gona do once i get up??
10. ok im done... but i just need to relax... its like almost as if because there is a minimal amount of drama, i seem to almost make a bigger deal out of smaller things just to not have something to do but... do ya no wut i mean?
ok thats it.... hope your having a wonderful summer and....
YOU DO KNOW WHAT TOMARROW IS DONT YOU???????