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My friend's father died yesterday. I didn't know him, and she's not one of my closest friends, but I am totally in shock. I feel so useless and I don't know what to say. I'll try my best to come to Montreal to show my sympathy next Friday, it's very important for me. I don't know if it'll work, but I really want to. Things like that make you think so much. I dreamt that my mother announced the family that she was going to die the next day. The rest of the dream was me crying and trying to talk to her on the phone for the last time. I woke up and I was actually crying for real. It was really creepy. Now I wish I could hold my mom in my arms and tell her what she means to me and how I love her so much. Life goes on, it's true, and my friend is strong, but losing someone like that is cruel. He was young. Oh, God, I don't think I'll get use to people dying. We're actually discussing the subject in our classes. As doctors, death will be part of our everyday lives more than any others. I wonder how I'll be able to tell a family that their loved one is gone, and won't come back. How can a guy like me, sensible to the extreme, will be able to detach his feelings to stay professional and announce and deal with things like that? I don't know. It's a challenge, I guess... For now, I'll send good energy my friend's way for her and her family to go through this united and strong.