AAHS vs State College Night
Not enough people care. It's never enough..I'll never be that perfection of myself I have in my mind. I'll never cross that bridge between us..no matter what I do. I can't be honest because then I'm open to everyone and I know that'll kill me..only one person in the entire world knows how weak I really am and how often. How much I just lay on my floor and feel so dead to the world, how many times I scream into my sheets so noone can hear. And even then it's not enough. I don't want to be torn..and I don't want to want the impossible. I don't want to automatically set impossible goals for myself. In the end I'm the only one that knows how torn up I am inside..and on those nights like this when I'm the worst and I'm crying out in the very few ways I know how..noone answers. Noone contacts me..noone talks to me. No one's there for these horrible times..especially not the people I want to be there.