Go to sleeep, go to sleeep, just kidding go do your homewoooork
(This may not be entirely coherent.)
So. I've never been drunk, or high (unless you count the Japanese Airport Benedryl incident of '09, or the post-wisdom teeth removal painkillers), or buzzed or whatever, but I imagine that it might be something like I'm feeling now. That awful wired exhaustion I feel when I'm sleep deprived but wide awake because Adderall is a stimulant.
I was stupid Sunday night and didn't go to bed until around 1am, so I only got about 6 hours, which is not quite enough for me. I need at least 8 to function normally, but I can still function on 6. Then monday night I stayed up until around midnight working on an art project due wednesday, so still around 6 and half hours that night. If's it one night of less than 6 hours, I can still survive, but more than one night and I start feeling really, really crappy. Then tuesday night I was up until 3am finishing the art drawing due this morning. I finished it, and it turned out amazing (pictures to come when I feel conscious enough to scan it--I hope it fits in my scanner), but I was soooo tired. So, last night I got like, 3 and a half hours. Maybe. Yeah. That's enough to make me a zombie on its own, but combined with the lack of sleep I'vebeen getting, today was not a good day. I had so much to get done today, but I was too braindead to do anything. I started feeling dizzy everytime I stood up for too long.
And I couldn't just go take a nap after class because my Adderall keeps me awake. And I couldn't just not take it today, because how else was I going to even stay awake long enough to get to class?
So I've spent most of today feeling completely wired but unable to actually think about anything. I've been kind of wondering about in a hyper-aware daze where I'm hyper-aware of absolutely nothing. Of silence, and exhaustion, and the emptiness of my own brain.
Ii'm feeling my medicine wear off now, so I'm going to attempt to get some sleep.
Just one more day of class, just one more, and then FRIDAY!!!!
(aka, HARRY FREAKING POTTER DAY)
I'm not getting to go to the midnight release (I'd so love to, though. And I'll be at the midnight release of Part 2) but I bought tickets in advance for friday afternoon. I'm going with my best friend and fellow HP fandork April, her little brother, and my mommy, who is also an HP fandweeb.
I dunno where I was going with this.
Maybe I'll have time to eat tomorrow. I havent' had a decent meal since....I don't know. I've been to tired to think about cooking an actual meal so I keep either grabbing whatever's nearest or going hungry (which, at 93 pounds, is exactly what I need to do :/ )
Sleep time. My body needs something to go on other than adrenaline and amphetamines.