Well, God Damn
So right now its Christmas Eve and I sit at my mom's house after laying out all the Santa presents and I think to myself, "Where has the year led me?" I read Nathead's journal and saw her year in review and now I think maybe a recap would make the year come to light. BTW, I've been sick for almost 3 weeks now and I haven't had a voice in 5 days. Okay lets take a fast recap at my life according to maybe a month by month replay...
January- Adam calls me after being astray for almost 5 monthes and we get together to hang out. 2 days after that we get back together have lots and lots of crazy sex and our relationship is back in business. My mom knows I'm keeping something from her and well I'm not coming home from work when I'm supposed too. Stopped working at Hot Topic and well my mom and I are butting heads constantly.
Febuary- I told my mom Adam and I are back together.. she needless to say has alot of problems with that. We have a final fight and its over.. I move out.. I stopped working at Godiva and went back to working at Hot Topic. I moved in with Adam.. discover his guitar has been stolen and someone tries to break into our apartment, well not just someone a person we know. We stay with my grandparents until we find a place. I dropped out of school. My mom and I stop talking.
March- Adam and I find a place, my grandparents loan us money to move in to it. I start working at Best Buy too. Adam and I are doing well. My grandparents are helping us out. We are hanging out with his cooky cousin Kyle alot, he's an artist like me. I lost contact with alot of my friends at this time cuz we didnt have any phone. I had a cell phone and well with no real reason at all I call my Dad for the first time in well 15 years. We talk alot, I end up with a $500 phone bill, my Dad said he would pay.
April- Well nows about the time I got sick, panic attacks hard core. I had to quit my jobs. Adam and I struggle but we make it through. Still talking with my Dad, my mom and I are at our last ends. I call and blow up at her. Basically my grandparents are all I have.
May- Jennifer came to visit me. I'm getting better but slowly. I start babysitting for Jeff. Its going alright. Slowly things are picking up again. My dad has gotten Adam and I phone and internet access so we can talk whenever and well I have internet again. I join ANCNT.
June- Adam comes home from a druken night at Kris's house. I was really worried it took him forever to get home. Things suddenly seem different with him. Things are moving too fast for him. He loves me, but he's not in love with me anymore. I move out and basically have a slight nervous breakdown. I'm still babysitting but things arent going well for me. I have very few friends. My mom and I have been talking but not very long, she tells me I can't move back home. I go and live with my grandparents. Bob, my ex-step-grandpa has a breakdown within our relationship accusing me of being crazy because of my small breakdown. On ANCNT I was attacked and then made a new friend Carles.
July- Babysits still though my life seems hum drum. I start going to poetry at Galileo's its a real good time. My grandparents and I arent getting along so well. I tell my dad I want to go live with him and I do.
August- Babysitting is almost over and with that I pack my bags and go to Utah. My step mom is crazy and well she makes my life there basically a living hell. I meet all my brothers and sisters for the first time, and I meet the most interesting person in my life, my dad. Snow and I first start talking. Someone confesses feeling for me, which I dont take well. But I get over it and well decide that we will see where things lead us.
September- My step mom loses her mind and tries to attack me and with that I come home from Utah. While I was in Utah my mom calls in a crying manner confessing how much she loves me and misses me and wants me back says I can come and live with her but she doesnt let me. My mother and I's relationship changes forever on that note and well I dont want to be back but I am. I have a cool art gallery job for 2 weeks.
October- I start working at the Waffle House. Oh my is it terrible but its something. My dad and I still talk when we can but its not half as much as it used to be, but its good. I still go to Galileo's and have a good time. I start having no life at all though, because I work so much.
November- I quit the Waffle House, start working at a school cafeteria. We had an awesome Thanksgiving and stuff seems to be alright for once. Oh and my mom got a dog, Elmer.
December- Its not over but here it is. I am going to see Carles at the end of the month and well we'll see how Christmas goes. My life seems to be the same.
And on that note, Kelsey and I get along marvelously and well Kenzie and I always have. I miss being at home and I miss living with them more and more all the time. I can't wait to go see Carles and well I can't wait for the new year to start. I have had many many things happen this year that have changed my life forever, for better or worse only time will tell. Oh and I did win a poetry contest for best Christmas poem, thank the gods, cuz my poor ass wasnt going to have a Christmas, I won a hundred dollars. One of the best things to happen all year.
Merry Christmas to all and to all a good night, I wish you love and happiness and to everyone have the best New Year ever!!
Love always,
Tara
January- Adam calls me after being astray for almost 5 monthes and we get together to hang out. 2 days after that we get back together have lots and lots of crazy sex and our relationship is back in business. My mom knows I'm keeping something from her and well I'm not coming home from work when I'm supposed too. Stopped working at Hot Topic and well my mom and I are butting heads constantly.
Febuary- I told my mom Adam and I are back together.. she needless to say has alot of problems with that. We have a final fight and its over.. I move out.. I stopped working at Godiva and went back to working at Hot Topic. I moved in with Adam.. discover his guitar has been stolen and someone tries to break into our apartment, well not just someone a person we know. We stay with my grandparents until we find a place. I dropped out of school. My mom and I stop talking.
March- Adam and I find a place, my grandparents loan us money to move in to it. I start working at Best Buy too. Adam and I are doing well. My grandparents are helping us out. We are hanging out with his cooky cousin Kyle alot, he's an artist like me. I lost contact with alot of my friends at this time cuz we didnt have any phone. I had a cell phone and well with no real reason at all I call my Dad for the first time in well 15 years. We talk alot, I end up with a $500 phone bill, my Dad said he would pay.
April- Well nows about the time I got sick, panic attacks hard core. I had to quit my jobs. Adam and I struggle but we make it through. Still talking with my Dad, my mom and I are at our last ends. I call and blow up at her. Basically my grandparents are all I have.
May- Jennifer came to visit me. I'm getting better but slowly. I start babysitting for Jeff. Its going alright. Slowly things are picking up again. My dad has gotten Adam and I phone and internet access so we can talk whenever and well I have internet again. I join ANCNT.
June- Adam comes home from a druken night at Kris's house. I was really worried it took him forever to get home. Things suddenly seem different with him. Things are moving too fast for him. He loves me, but he's not in love with me anymore. I move out and basically have a slight nervous breakdown. I'm still babysitting but things arent going well for me. I have very few friends. My mom and I have been talking but not very long, she tells me I can't move back home. I go and live with my grandparents. Bob, my ex-step-grandpa has a breakdown within our relationship accusing me of being crazy because of my small breakdown. On ANCNT I was attacked and then made a new friend Carles.
July- Babysits still though my life seems hum drum. I start going to poetry at Galileo's its a real good time. My grandparents and I arent getting along so well. I tell my dad I want to go live with him and I do.
August- Babysitting is almost over and with that I pack my bags and go to Utah. My step mom is crazy and well she makes my life there basically a living hell. I meet all my brothers and sisters for the first time, and I meet the most interesting person in my life, my dad. Snow and I first start talking. Someone confesses feeling for me, which I dont take well. But I get over it and well decide that we will see where things lead us.
September- My step mom loses her mind and tries to attack me and with that I come home from Utah. While I was in Utah my mom calls in a crying manner confessing how much she loves me and misses me and wants me back says I can come and live with her but she doesnt let me. My mother and I's relationship changes forever on that note and well I dont want to be back but I am. I have a cool art gallery job for 2 weeks.
October- I start working at the Waffle House. Oh my is it terrible but its something. My dad and I still talk when we can but its not half as much as it used to be, but its good. I still go to Galileo's and have a good time. I start having no life at all though, because I work so much.
November- I quit the Waffle House, start working at a school cafeteria. We had an awesome Thanksgiving and stuff seems to be alright for once. Oh and my mom got a dog, Elmer.
December- Its not over but here it is. I am going to see Carles at the end of the month and well we'll see how Christmas goes. My life seems to be the same.
And on that note, Kelsey and I get along marvelously and well Kenzie and I always have. I miss being at home and I miss living with them more and more all the time. I can't wait to go see Carles and well I can't wait for the new year to start. I have had many many things happen this year that have changed my life forever, for better or worse only time will tell. Oh and I did win a poetry contest for best Christmas poem, thank the gods, cuz my poor ass wasnt going to have a Christmas, I won a hundred dollars. One of the best things to happen all year.
Merry Christmas to all and to all a good night, I wish you love and happiness and to everyone have the best New Year ever!!
Love always,
Tara