Feeling better.
I just had a real long talk with my dad. It was fabulous. I feel reassured that he misses me alot. Just as much as I miss him. Given I felt that he did, but I didn't hear him get sad about it until today. I hadn't really gotten sad about it either honestly, until recently. I find it very odd that we seem to hide our pain the same way. We have so much in common it freaks me alot. You know I was watching this thing last night on t.v. about twins and how they actually tend to be more alike when they have been seperated at birth. Because you see when you aren't under pressure internally to be different from your twin your natural talents and natures come out more easily. It is really quite odd. In a sense we were raised quite simularly. One parent home, step parents, etc. So it is wonderful, its like talking to myself alot, until we get into religion and some politics but most things, its pretty fabulous. We talked about 4 hours tonight, I wish I could talk to him forever although I know its not possible. I mentioned maybe coming for a little bit of Christmas, but we'll see. Its expensive to just like go somewhere cuz you want too.
On a lighter note Waffle House asked me to come back and I said no, because I'm tierd of the bull shit and they can kiss my ass about the whole thing.
So anywho, I guess I'm actually a little cloudy at the moment. I got to talk to Jon my brother today on the phone, which was fabulous.. I love him so much. He's such a cutie. He loves Eminem and 50 cent. He cracks me up.
Kelsey went to go see John Mayer on Friday, with her very good friend Liz. My mom and I ate and walked around a very cold bricktown. My dad thinks she wants so much to do with me as of late because she no longer sees me as a threat in her household, since I've been gone a while as if to realize "Hey Tara's not so bad she was kind of fun." I hope he's not right, I hope she just trully wants to try to be a little closer to me. I don't know if thats a false hope to have or not but if it is, it wouldn't be the first one I've had.
I got some bad news yesterday before the concert as well, aparently Jeff's grandpa, grandpa dinger, is in a nursing home as of late he's droped to about 95lbs and well he has alzheimers, he isn't going to make it much longer. I feel death is close. It chills me slightly as I remember how wonderful of a man he was. How he didn't know who I was the last time I saw him and I felt bad. I feel for the Amend family now. And for myself, he is a man that has touched my heart and will always hold a fond place within my memories. I told Jeff I didn't want to see him, I want to remember him how he was, he said he understood. With this in mind always stay close to those you love because you never know when the end is near.
I wish everyone a wonderful day and smile to cross your face,
I wish my friends and family love no matter the distance or how far away...
I love you all.
And I love you more each day..
Love always,
Tara
On a lighter note Waffle House asked me to come back and I said no, because I'm tierd of the bull shit and they can kiss my ass about the whole thing.
So anywho, I guess I'm actually a little cloudy at the moment. I got to talk to Jon my brother today on the phone, which was fabulous.. I love him so much. He's such a cutie. He loves Eminem and 50 cent. He cracks me up.
Kelsey went to go see John Mayer on Friday, with her very good friend Liz. My mom and I ate and walked around a very cold bricktown. My dad thinks she wants so much to do with me as of late because she no longer sees me as a threat in her household, since I've been gone a while as if to realize "Hey Tara's not so bad she was kind of fun." I hope he's not right, I hope she just trully wants to try to be a little closer to me. I don't know if thats a false hope to have or not but if it is, it wouldn't be the first one I've had.
I got some bad news yesterday before the concert as well, aparently Jeff's grandpa, grandpa dinger, is in a nursing home as of late he's droped to about 95lbs and well he has alzheimers, he isn't going to make it much longer. I feel death is close. It chills me slightly as I remember how wonderful of a man he was. How he didn't know who I was the last time I saw him and I felt bad. I feel for the Amend family now. And for myself, he is a man that has touched my heart and will always hold a fond place within my memories. I told Jeff I didn't want to see him, I want to remember him how he was, he said he understood. With this in mind always stay close to those you love because you never know when the end is near.
I wish everyone a wonderful day and smile to cross your face,
I wish my friends and family love no matter the distance or how far away...
I love you all.
And I love you more each day..
Love always,
Tara