sigh
well it seemed as though this year was going to start out great, but it appears i was wrong.
everything went all wrong all at once...i dont know what it is buti always feel like things just pile up on me. i dont think i have ever felt so alone....
i'm not even sure what to say...i don't want to talk about it all here on lj...i just dont know. sometimes you think you know people, and it turns out your wrong. sometimes you think you know yourself, but you dont. at the moment my main focus is my health, which i am slowly but surely making much progress on, its one thing to at least be excited for.
school started today, my classes seemed alright. both my professors from today seemed really great. i have three more classes tomorrow so we'll see how that goes. my work schedule however blows, they barely scheduled me at all, which usually would be awesome, except that i really need money, i think this is the last straw for me, im lookin for a new job starting asap. end of story.
why do i feel so sad...i mean i know why i feel sad, but i just wasnt prepared for this, i hate this part...and the sad part is, its all my own fault. i dont want to reveal my vulnerability or weakness, but i just cant hold it in much longer...its too hard to act like im not bothered when i feel like im falling apart. i think from now on i just want to avoid relationships and such altogether, im not sure i can take another heartbreak....this part is just too much for me to handle... i miss everything, your touch, your kiss, your smell, and all the little things, the small habits and the things just between us... it just hurts so freakin much...
i dont know what more to say...
kayleigh and angie, i miss you guys a whole lot, wish ya'll were still here...
thats all for now. hopefully next entry i'll have more positive things to write about.
til then.
-LiZ
everything went all wrong all at once...i dont know what it is buti always feel like things just pile up on me. i dont think i have ever felt so alone....
i'm not even sure what to say...i don't want to talk about it all here on lj...i just dont know. sometimes you think you know people, and it turns out your wrong. sometimes you think you know yourself, but you dont. at the moment my main focus is my health, which i am slowly but surely making much progress on, its one thing to at least be excited for.
school started today, my classes seemed alright. both my professors from today seemed really great. i have three more classes tomorrow so we'll see how that goes. my work schedule however blows, they barely scheduled me at all, which usually would be awesome, except that i really need money, i think this is the last straw for me, im lookin for a new job starting asap. end of story.
why do i feel so sad...i mean i know why i feel sad, but i just wasnt prepared for this, i hate this part...and the sad part is, its all my own fault. i dont want to reveal my vulnerability or weakness, but i just cant hold it in much longer...its too hard to act like im not bothered when i feel like im falling apart. i think from now on i just want to avoid relationships and such altogether, im not sure i can take another heartbreak....this part is just too much for me to handle... i miss everything, your touch, your kiss, your smell, and all the little things, the small habits and the things just between us... it just hurts so freakin much...
i dont know what more to say...
kayleigh and angie, i miss you guys a whole lot, wish ya'll were still here...
thats all for now. hopefully next entry i'll have more positive things to write about.
til then.
-LiZ