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i guess its been awhile again.
ive been all over the place the past two weeks. sea world. houston twice. round rock.
all fun and such. God i miss my family. i miss my parents so much and my brother too.
i feel alone and useless. i'm bored and numb. i'm starting to hate chili's even more. its the same shit every day, kissing ass and feeling like its all for nothing. i hate acting like that, i hate being so fake to people, and then being spit on.
i wish i just did more with my days. i sleep alot. way more then i used too.
i had a really bad dream last night. it felt so real that i couldnt help but be down about it for most of the day. sometimes you think you have your insecurities under control. and then something silly yields the control once again.
enough already. i wish i could just be able to say the things i wanna say and put into words how i feel. that sounds way more depressing then its supposed to. i'm done rambling nonsense. goodnight.
ive been all over the place the past two weeks. sea world. houston twice. round rock.
all fun and such. God i miss my family. i miss my parents so much and my brother too.
i feel alone and useless. i'm bored and numb. i'm starting to hate chili's even more. its the same shit every day, kissing ass and feeling like its all for nothing. i hate acting like that, i hate being so fake to people, and then being spit on.
i wish i just did more with my days. i sleep alot. way more then i used too.
i had a really bad dream last night. it felt so real that i couldnt help but be down about it for most of the day. sometimes you think you have your insecurities under control. and then something silly yields the control once again.
enough already. i wish i could just be able to say the things i wanna say and put into words how i feel. that sounds way more depressing then its supposed to. i'm done rambling nonsense. goodnight.