a cry for help....*crys for help*
Guys, I am going to need you a lot of you in the next couple days, because I think I just had one of my first, or one of my first panic attacks. Wow, I just had some horrible thoughts too. It's not just Malone, it really is only a part of it. It has been building all Summer and all week. Its gettting older, its going away for good, its being all alone and my family.. its mostly malone and getting older i guess, if i am being honest. I really just had some horrible horrible thoughts and flashbacks about just not going on. just ending it all. I know everyone has these thoughts and stuff, but I acted on them in 9th grade in pure teen angst style (taking pills). I just need to get though this like I got through that, a bit of laughter and a whole lot of thinking. So guys, I just wanted you to know what was going on with me, you don't have to say anything, just be there for me to talk to like you always are.