hello again!
even before when other people stopped writing in livejournal i never saw myself losing interest in it. i guess that was before i had a roommate to vent to and an actual notebook journal to write in. i never ever come on livejournal anymore. oops.
africa totally fixed me, which was to be expected, and now ive had that lingering emotional-ness and nostalgia and absolute happiness and complete frustration for the past couple weeks. like honduras. if i could stay with those kids forever i swear all the little things would never bother me again.
sarah and kay picked on me a lot on the trip, which made it difficult because it distracted me sometimes when i wanted to focus on the people we were interacting with. i ask some pretty stupid questions sometimes and say some pretty unnecessary random things sometimes that i should probably keep to myself... but i knew that. i dont need people to make fun of me for it, and im working on it honestly. i didnt want to feel like i was in 7th grade again. uggggh. but that's over.
i visited fordham this weekend which was amazingly fun, zeinus friends are so wonderful and dinner/going out was quite a good time! i wish we had a china wine in new london! :) but of course, the drinking age is enforced over here...
and there is zeina's friend lenny, with whom the situation is frustrating me very much. i kind of wish i never met him so this problem would not exist. that is obviously an uncharacteristic of me pessimistic outlook, but.... you know. the situation is laughable, honestly. it makes me mad at myself.
school is almost over, and i wont be a freshmen anymore. we wont be the confused, naive, just-getting-used-to-it ones anymore. i dont like that idea, this year has gone by way too fast. and i still feel slightly unstable. shouldnt i feel settled by now? just a tiny bit of instability. just the amount so that i notice it every once in a while.
sorry for being so vague/overly pensive/depressing! that's all! byebye!