OMG, where did the time go?
Oh wow, this must be the longest time I haven't written anything! I did start a couple of times, but writer's block is a thing. Even in blogging.
So, two years ago I coughed up my courage and told my boss I need to work less. I wasn't happy. Had sick leave because of depression and anxiety... It was like a loop. perfect circle of not getting sales, feeling guilty, feeling anxious, depressed... which of course fed the mood in work and again no sales.... Voila´, you got a loop. I started working part-time. And I loved it. I had time in home. I could sleep. I got my meds updated, I slept even better... I felt better.
Then I started in school, kind of. It's one of those "update your skills" kind of thing that is offered to unemployed. I loved it. We were working in kitchen, planning up events and all that tourism stuff. And learned about cleaning. Ha! I loved every minute of it. I even got a trainee spot in local small hotel. I'm still working there. Reception, breakfast and cleaning. Part-time only but it's so much fun. Hard sometimes, but always fun.
Only thing I didn't like during my year of schooling, was that I somehow got plantaris fascitis.. in both feet, though other was worse. Day after day on my feet for hours, after five years of being practically glued to computer and office chair. Disaster. But it got better, thankfully. Though my feet still ache after a long day or standing on hard floor without proper shoes.
At this moment I have two part-time jobs. The hotel and other is a book store. I helped during the Christmas sales and later they asked if I'd like to other times too... That one is also nice. I love everyone in there. But would I do that forever? Definitely not. But oh, how I wish I had more money... the books!!!! I love books... and stationary.
These two years have been a rollercoaster. Sometimes I feel great and everything is fine. Next day I feel awful and everything is wrong. Specially during the dark time of the year. The job in the office I had before was terminated after they closed the office near my town. I had two months in the beginning of the year when I had no job (hotel was closed and bookstore hadn't started yet) and I thought my life sucks. I visited relatives and spent days in a fog. Honestly I can't tell you what I did, other than keep routines up.
But summer is starting. My kids wait for the summer holiday. And swimming. If you're visiting and we're not home, we're probably swimming. Well, when I'm off anyway. Summer is busiest time for the hotel and I think I will have my weeks full. I'm not complaining, yet. Maybe when I haven't had a day off and it's blistering hot in the kitchen....