love.
So zack's in Europe and I'm stuck here. Figures. In a way I think it's a good thing that he went away when he did. We got into a huge fight over me lieing, which I completely realized how much he meant to me afterwards and I shouldn't leave things out, even if they seem like little things to me. He's too big of a part in my life to jeopardize over meaningless acts. So I guess all in all it was a good experience I could learn from. I know who's a true friend, and who clearly isn't. I just wish I could be able to see when someone is a heartless bitch instead of a sweet person. People are so fake. But oh well.
Anyways, I know my argument with Zack was all my fault. I owned up to things, and we talked. He picked my up after school Friday night and we went for a drive. I wanted to go to Imagination Station to swing, so we did. More fighting, so we took a long drive, like we always do. I never realized how many feelings one person can have for another, especially when I had no idea that they existed. I feel like I mean something, I feel needed. I really needed that talk. I can't be without him. It's like loosing my best friend. So honesty is key now. No more lieing. It's so not worth it.
So the past couple days I've just been hanging around, not doing too much. I just want some me time. To reflect on my problems, and just everything. And then next week will be absolutely perfect. My summer is pretty okay. I mean, I've never had a boyfriend during the summer because I'm always on vacation and it's just pointless. But this year is completely different.
School's almost over. I can't wait. Then after I get my wisdom teeth out. Not all that excited about it, but I'll get taken care of :) Then school starts again Sept.6. It'll be a great new experience for me. I was never much of a person who enjoyed school. Mostly because of the people I had to see every single day. So this new independence will be good for me. Plus Amy and Alexa will be with me, so I won't be completely alone.
*todayilistendtoallourfavoritesongs
theymademethinkofyou
idgiveprettymuchanythingtoseeyou
imissyoumoreveryday
Anyways, I know my argument with Zack was all my fault. I owned up to things, and we talked. He picked my up after school Friday night and we went for a drive. I wanted to go to Imagination Station to swing, so we did. More fighting, so we took a long drive, like we always do. I never realized how many feelings one person can have for another, especially when I had no idea that they existed. I feel like I mean something, I feel needed. I really needed that talk. I can't be without him. It's like loosing my best friend. So honesty is key now. No more lieing. It's so not worth it.
So the past couple days I've just been hanging around, not doing too much. I just want some me time. To reflect on my problems, and just everything. And then next week will be absolutely perfect. My summer is pretty okay. I mean, I've never had a boyfriend during the summer because I'm always on vacation and it's just pointless. But this year is completely different.
School's almost over. I can't wait. Then after I get my wisdom teeth out. Not all that excited about it, but I'll get taken care of :) Then school starts again Sept.6. It'll be a great new experience for me. I was never much of a person who enjoyed school. Mostly because of the people I had to see every single day. So this new independence will be good for me. Plus Amy and Alexa will be with me, so I won't be completely alone.
*todayilistendtoallourfavoritesongs
theymademethinkofyou
idgiveprettymuchanythingtoseeyou
imissyoumoreveryday