just a girl standing infront of a boy asking him to love her.
Tonight was ridiculous. I’d be so much better off if I seriously just stayed home every night by myself watching sex and the city up in my room. Problems ALWAYS happen. My nights always get ruined. I'm 17 fucking years old and I have so much drama that I want to shoot the majority of the people I know. Sad fact.
I'm afraid of loosing. But I know in the end, I will. I'm trying to see if I have the energy to care. I really am. I want to be everything but I seem to continue to fail on trying to be that. And I have to ask myself, why do you always fail? It's true too, I always fail. It's a pain in the ass and I can do nothing about it. Little meaningless people fuck me over because they have nothing better to do in their pathetic juvenile lives. Another sad fact. Someday I'll win. Somedaaaay.
I'm quite cynical at this point. Actually just bottom line livid at all this fucking shit I get thrown at me.
I can’t try anymore. I just love, and it’s not good enough anymore. It will never be good enough.
Oh, I wish I just didn’t care. I don’t belong here. So it’d be a good idea to leave as soon as possible.
"this is what living like this does"
you bet.
iwishididntloveyousomuch
iwishididntcare
iwishididnthavetowish
iwishicouldjusthave
whycantieverjusthave
ialwayswant
I'm afraid of loosing. But I know in the end, I will. I'm trying to see if I have the energy to care. I really am. I want to be everything but I seem to continue to fail on trying to be that. And I have to ask myself, why do you always fail? It's true too, I always fail. It's a pain in the ass and I can do nothing about it. Little meaningless people fuck me over because they have nothing better to do in their pathetic juvenile lives. Another sad fact. Someday I'll win. Somedaaaay.
I'm quite cynical at this point. Actually just bottom line livid at all this fucking shit I get thrown at me.
I can’t try anymore. I just love, and it’s not good enough anymore. It will never be good enough.
Oh, I wish I just didn’t care. I don’t belong here. So it’d be a good idea to leave as soon as possible.
"this is what living like this does"
you bet.
iwishididntloveyousomuch
iwishididntcare
iwishididnthavetowish
iwishicouldjusthave
whycantieverjusthave
ialwayswant