Kofenya... again

[summer3584]

So, I am at Kofenya... again... avoiding my paper... again. I have realized that I am not cut out for Poli Sci. I guess it is a good thing to know, but since I am not a major, it doesn't really matter. The only thing that really matters right now is finishing this fucking paper and not hanging myself with my lovely Staples shirt. 11 days until the semester is over. 12 days until I move everything out of my apartment. 13 days until graduation. As excited as I am for graduation, the end of the semester is rough. If I can survive this paper, I can actually survive anything. I mean ANYTHING. This is by far the most painful assignment I have ever had. I wish I didn't care any more. I wish I could put crap on paper and find it acceptable. Unfortunately, even writing out of my usual voice and style, I still have to be satisfied before someone is allowed to read my writing. I am usually really quick at writing even outside of my comfort zone, but this is ridiculous. I have been stuck at 3 pages for days. I keep rewriting, deleting, and adding. I fear that Friday is going to come too soon. It doesn't help that I keep coming back here to post when I should be writing. Someone should probably be sitting here holding my hand so I will stay focused. Of course, then I would talk their ear off! I already spent a significant amount of time on the phone with Cynthia. I love that girl...

All right, I must focus, for real this time... Here's to not sleeping until Friday after work...

I hate my life at the moment... Thank God for the bright light at the end of the tunnel :)