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Kimi...by the way nothing is ever your fault...nothing has ever been anyones fault...its all my fault. Onet hing happens or I feel like I just am a burder on whoever is around and I can'g ever seem to just fit in...It's not that I want to but I just want to be able to be like hey your so awesome and I have never felt like that before. Every friend that I get can never be what I want them to be. I can't help who they are and I always love them but I just can't get them to feel the same way about me. I mean I do but it's just not how I think it should be. It's not anyones fault but mine because I am such negative person and I don't know what to do otherwise. I'm just so confused and I feel like no one can understand me.
And in the car when I was like "Woah" and you guys asked me what it was...seeing my ex boyfriends sister there so close to my house made me feel like nothing and everyone says that guys aren't anything...and I know that but it's just one thing that gets added on my list of people I can't hang on to or that can't stand being close to me...
I feel like I have nothing to live for and it's all such a bad feeling...
By the way if none of this makes any sense I understand I relayl don 't know what I am typing because I am crying and I can't really concentrate...at all...
And in the car when I was like "Woah" and you guys asked me what it was...seeing my ex boyfriends sister there so close to my house made me feel like nothing and everyone says that guys aren't anything...and I know that but it's just one thing that gets added on my list of people I can't hang on to or that can't stand being close to me...
I feel like I have nothing to live for and it's all such a bad feeling...
By the way if none of this makes any sense I understand I relayl don 't know what I am typing because I am crying and I can't really concentrate...at all...