General Life Update: Life changers
I know I haven't been active and I know no one really reads this, so I'm going to be open and frank.
I'm not happy in my current situation. I can't rely on family anymore, because they can't, or in the case of my roommate and brother, won't help me. I don't want to rely on my room mates, because one is just as bad off as I, and the other has no obligation to help me. I have a few options. I can stay as I am, where I am and stay unhappy. Or, I can move in with my boyfriend and accept the consequences of that move. Or, I could move back with my parents and have no way to school.
What pisses me off the most is my brother. I love him dearly, but I can't live with him if he's annoyed by my presence, if he refuses to buy food meant for the entire apartment. He was always difficult, but I'm tired of it. I really am.
I'm also sick of worrying where food or money for the bus will come from next. Currently, I have nothing. No food to my name except for a few bags of beans and some spare change. Everything else is someone else's. As long as I have food for my cat, I'm happy. He's my biggest worry. How will I take care of him? Does he have litter? Does he have food and water?
I just don't want to worry anymore. Is that too much to ask for?
I'm not happy in my current situation. I can't rely on family anymore, because they can't, or in the case of my roommate and brother, won't help me. I don't want to rely on my room mates, because one is just as bad off as I, and the other has no obligation to help me. I have a few options. I can stay as I am, where I am and stay unhappy. Or, I can move in with my boyfriend and accept the consequences of that move. Or, I could move back with my parents and have no way to school.
What pisses me off the most is my brother. I love him dearly, but I can't live with him if he's annoyed by my presence, if he refuses to buy food meant for the entire apartment. He was always difficult, but I'm tired of it. I really am.
I'm also sick of worrying where food or money for the bus will come from next. Currently, I have nothing. No food to my name except for a few bags of beans and some spare change. Everything else is someone else's. As long as I have food for my cat, I'm happy. He's my biggest worry. How will I take care of him? Does he have litter? Does he have food and water?
I just don't want to worry anymore. Is that too much to ask for?