I am finally seeing why I was the one worth leaving

[sumerxnights]

Tonight I was supposed to hang out with Ryan but he got in trouble with the authority. Pretty gay situation so I won't even get into it. I'll get too pissed off, it's so pathetic what they did to him. I won't be able to see him before he leaves or anything. Guess I'll see him when we get back to school... Since my plans went crazy, I went to the mall with Meg and we danced around and hung out with Pete Smith for a little bit. A pretty chill night. I needed it. Jada and I are gonna try to get together before she leaves for Las Vegas, woot woot! If not we're gonna chill when she gets back. Over the break I'm probably just going to tan, over eat, and work out too much. Not a bad plan if I do say so myself. Tomorrow I have a dentist appointment (I LOVE GOING TO THE DENTIST!) and then to Genny's killer party! Going out to dinner and then gonna watch a few scary movies at her house with some people that sound cool. Sunday, I think I'm hanging out with Jessi and hacking her hair and probably working out. Zac might come with us. It'll be really refeshing to hang out with him again, I've missed him. Maybe if I get lucky, I'll see Ryan at work for 5 minutes. It's definately better than nothing. Hopefully this break I'll get a chance to relax, but not too much. I wanna be with the people I haven't seen in awhile. It'll be awesome. I guess I'm gonna get going. Much love.

I MISS RYAN!!!

_I want so badly to believe that there is truth
and love is real
and I want life in every word to the extent
that it's absurd
I know you're wise beyond your years
but do you ever get the fear
that your perfect verse is just a lie
that you tell yourself to help you get by_

<3 Tina