none of this inbetween crap
its eleven eleven and i didnt even plan on it.
so being home is wonderful. i saw ross. im a bit con confused by him.
i tell you what. im so sick of this guy confusion. jason totally ruined my patients.
i just dont want to deal with it. but thats the inbetween time right?
its rediculous. actually. i think hes afriad. hes confused himself and he doesnt know what he wants.
im sure he was flirting just to get my attention. hes flirting with amber to. ALOT. and it doesnt make me mad.
it just confuses me more. wtf.
im sry nick.
and i have a whole summer to see what happens. i mean why rush it? for all i know loving him the way i did again could be a very huge mistake.
i dont mean to get in a bad mood when the attention isnt on me. it just sucks. this feeling of... wow usually i was with him all the time. i huged him i kissed him we tlked. we spent time together. and its hard to get out of the mentality. i forget sometimes that we arent togther. and i have this urge to go hug him or hold his hand. he seems like ross. not much different just alot better of aa person. but how he acts isnt want id expect from him after this big transformation he had. hes kinda perverted yea. he just jokes alot with inappropriate stuff. im afriad im not what he had expected me to be. maybe im not mature enough. or "Godly" enough. maybe my hair isnt long enough and my butt is to big. maybe he was just curious how id react if he showed interest. maybe im fooling my self? i dont know. but we cant not tlk about it. IT CANT BE A GUESSING GAME it is up to God. with what happens. but God doesnt tell us to act any certian way. its our job to ask Him if this is right. which we should be praying about all long. i have been. i know it. i swear to you i know. i just know.
its him. he needs confirmation. what is he going by? i asked him what he was thinking. he said he was sorry for offending me by flirting. which didnt offend me but confused me. and that he doesnt know what will happen and its up to God. so how does this work. maybe hell go by what he feels for me. or something shows clear in a bible verse. maybe so many coincedences occur how could u ignore the answer?
so being home is wonderful. i saw ross. im a bit con confused by him.
i tell you what. im so sick of this guy confusion. jason totally ruined my patients.
i just dont want to deal with it. but thats the inbetween time right?
its rediculous. actually. i think hes afriad. hes confused himself and he doesnt know what he wants.
im sure he was flirting just to get my attention. hes flirting with amber to. ALOT. and it doesnt make me mad.
it just confuses me more. wtf.
im sry nick.
and i have a whole summer to see what happens. i mean why rush it? for all i know loving him the way i did again could be a very huge mistake.
i dont mean to get in a bad mood when the attention isnt on me. it just sucks. this feeling of... wow usually i was with him all the time. i huged him i kissed him we tlked. we spent time together. and its hard to get out of the mentality. i forget sometimes that we arent togther. and i have this urge to go hug him or hold his hand. he seems like ross. not much different just alot better of aa person. but how he acts isnt want id expect from him after this big transformation he had. hes kinda perverted yea. he just jokes alot with inappropriate stuff. im afriad im not what he had expected me to be. maybe im not mature enough. or "Godly" enough. maybe my hair isnt long enough and my butt is to big. maybe he was just curious how id react if he showed interest. maybe im fooling my self? i dont know. but we cant not tlk about it. IT CANT BE A GUESSING GAME it is up to God. with what happens. but God doesnt tell us to act any certian way. its our job to ask Him if this is right. which we should be praying about all long. i have been. i know it. i swear to you i know. i just know.
its him. he needs confirmation. what is he going by? i asked him what he was thinking. he said he was sorry for offending me by flirting. which didnt offend me but confused me. and that he doesnt know what will happen and its up to God. so how does this work. maybe hell go by what he feels for me. or something shows clear in a bible verse. maybe so many coincedences occur how could u ignore the answer?