poems, thought i'd put these here
Bleeding Sister
I don't know you but I wish I did.
I thought I knew your but realized I never did.
You don't know me, and don't even try.
You are my sister, and yet you don't even bat an eye.
You take from em even what I can not give.
I love you more than me, I would rather you live.
Every day it hurts to see you in pain.
Every day it hurts...when you use me again.
I will always love you no matter what.
From the deepest depth of my soul, I'll love you through it all.
I let you embed my skin through your self-made cut.
I'll bleed out everything I can to you , just catch me when I fall.
Find Me
I give myself to you, through frustration and hurt,
and you take advantage of me. You stip me and smile.
You take me for granted, you assume I'll always be there.
If I ever change, I might be gone forever.
Could I change, or is my love too strong.
How much can I take until my fear leaves and this child is gone.
You think of me as your shadow, but don't watch who I am.
I'm always there, trying to find where the sun meets the horizon.
But then I wonder do I love you so much....
I will sacrifice what I think I could be, for just those precious moments where you find me.
You Watched
You watched me pay a high price every since I was little.
Watched me uncomforably twitch in my own skin.
You spoke few words, afraid to hear what you might find within.
You watched me cry, you watched me smile.
You never did say much.
You watched the good, but spoke up for the bad.
You criticized all the things I never had.
You watched me so much, but you could never really see,
your little girl crying out for you just to be.
You were there when I called, you got me out of some of my trouble.
You watched me turn into a slightly different person.
You watched so much, you forgot to speak, then it was too late, I was out of your reach.
You just watched me hurt and scream and cry.
You watched yourself not say a word, you convinced yourself you gave a good try.
How can you not say something you are supposed to feel so strong?
I feel guilty for my feelings toward you.
I can't find the balance I need.
I don't know if what you did is right or wrong.
You are there for me, and I love you.
Your silence has hurt more than any mistake you thought you might make.
How long will you watch what you have made.
I don't know you but I wish I did.
I thought I knew your but realized I never did.
You don't know me, and don't even try.
You are my sister, and yet you don't even bat an eye.
You take from em even what I can not give.
I love you more than me, I would rather you live.
Every day it hurts to see you in pain.
Every day it hurts...when you use me again.
I will always love you no matter what.
From the deepest depth of my soul, I'll love you through it all.
I let you embed my skin through your self-made cut.
I'll bleed out everything I can to you , just catch me when I fall.
Find Me
I give myself to you, through frustration and hurt,
and you take advantage of me. You stip me and smile.
You take me for granted, you assume I'll always be there.
If I ever change, I might be gone forever.
Could I change, or is my love too strong.
How much can I take until my fear leaves and this child is gone.
You think of me as your shadow, but don't watch who I am.
I'm always there, trying to find where the sun meets the horizon.
But then I wonder do I love you so much....
I will sacrifice what I think I could be, for just those precious moments where you find me.
You Watched
You watched me pay a high price every since I was little.
Watched me uncomforably twitch in my own skin.
You spoke few words, afraid to hear what you might find within.
You watched me cry, you watched me smile.
You never did say much.
You watched the good, but spoke up for the bad.
You criticized all the things I never had.
You watched me so much, but you could never really see,
your little girl crying out for you just to be.
You were there when I called, you got me out of some of my trouble.
You watched me turn into a slightly different person.
You watched so much, you forgot to speak, then it was too late, I was out of your reach.
You just watched me hurt and scream and cry.
You watched yourself not say a word, you convinced yourself you gave a good try.
How can you not say something you are supposed to feel so strong?
I feel guilty for my feelings toward you.
I can't find the balance I need.
I don't know if what you did is right or wrong.
You are there for me, and I love you.
Your silence has hurt more than any mistake you thought you might make.
How long will you watch what you have made.