#17
Well, today was of course better than last time I posted. I went to Vangie's again and worked on a 2500 peice puzzle! yay!
But I guess i came to post so I can bitch again. Arrgh I still really miss dave. He shouldn't bother me because he's obviously let thing go and I should too, but it's really hard to talk to him and I don't want to complain to him or anyone else. I wish I didn't have such a hard time letting things go, but it's hard to think that if I ever see him again it won't be the same, not to mention I'll always just want to hold him and all that crap when I know I can't anymore....I wonder if he's feeling the same way, even if things can't go back I hope he is. Also, a lot of things remind me of him And everyone is acting like nothing has changed which hurts too. I was on DA today and there is this couple that acts completly lovey dovey. When I was with Dave I thought it was chraming and cute but now I just feel sick looking at it. It was like an image of what could of been but now my love is shot all to hell.
Enough bitching for tonight, sorry to anyone that actually sat through all that. --;;;
But I guess i came to post so I can bitch again. Arrgh I still really miss dave. He shouldn't bother me because he's obviously let thing go and I should too, but it's really hard to talk to him and I don't want to complain to him or anyone else. I wish I didn't have such a hard time letting things go, but it's hard to think that if I ever see him again it won't be the same, not to mention I'll always just want to hold him and all that crap when I know I can't anymore....I wonder if he's feeling the same way, even if things can't go back I hope he is. Also, a lot of things remind me of him And everyone is acting like nothing has changed which hurts too. I was on DA today and there is this couple that acts completly lovey dovey. When I was with Dave I thought it was chraming and cute but now I just feel sick looking at it. It was like an image of what could of been but now my love is shot all to hell.
Enough bitching for tonight, sorry to anyone that actually sat through all that. --;;;