Stay with me (12a/?)
Title: Stay with me (12a/?)
Rating: PG-13 (small mention of violence, curse words)
Genre: Angst, Drama
Pairing: HanChul, Sichul (Unrequited love?)
Disclaimer: I only own the plot
Summary:
Heechul finds himself deeply in love with his fellow super junior member Hangeng. Could this love be a blessing or is it a curse threatening to change everything he knows.
MASTER LIST
Chapter 1|| Chapter 2|| Chapter 3|| Chapter 4|| Chapter 5|| Chapter 6 || Chapter 7 || Chapter 8 || Chapter 9|| Chapter 10a | | Chapter 10b || Chapter 11||Chapter 12 a|| Chapter 12b|| Chapter 13|| Chpater 14|| Chapter 15
They were all extremely busy preparing for their third album. Heechul collapsed on the couch after a 12 hour day of practice, and more practice and more practice. If he saw another page of sheet music he was going to go crazy.
Leeteuk collapsed down onto the couch next to him. Suddenly the room was completely crowded as all fifteen members were present. They turned the TV on and decided that they would have a movie night to just wind down. How had he ended up squashed between Hangeng and Siwon? Both of their arms were pressed against his. So awkward. Was it simply convenience that they all thought the same thing?
The movie was a perfect mix of humour and action. By the end of it all of the members were greatly relaxed and ready for bed. Heechul was even in a half asleep state. He felt the members moving around him to go to bed. He couldn’t be bothered getting up, looks like he would be sleeping on the couch tonight. Two arms slid under his body before picking him up. He snuggled closer to the warm chest. He felt waves of comfort wash over him as those arms were wrapped around him securely. Their heart beat acted as a lullaby for him. The next thing he knew his sheets were draped over him. IT wasn’t long at all before he completely fell under the veil of sleep.
Siwon walked back into the living room to find Kibum asleep, head leaning against the back of the couch. He picked the smaller boy up and made his way to their shared room. He made sure that Kibum was tucked in nicely before climbing into his own bed. He draped one of his arms over his eyes. His feelings for Heechul were driving him crazy. It wasn’t right the way he felt. It was wrong to want to hold Heechul in his arms and never let go. It was completely wrong…
Heechul tossed and turned in his sleep. He was stuck in a nightmare, a horrible nightmare.
Chains jingled around his wrists and ankles. He was standing on a stage. There was a crowd in front of him. He didn’t recognise any of them. The chains behind him were pulled. His back came into contact with a tall standing log. He struggled. What was going on? Why was he here? He felt his heart beat widely when a hooded figure moved towards him. They wrapped chains around him, securing him to the log. What the hell was happening?
The crowd let out a huge scream. The next thing he knew fruit was being hurled at him. He turned his head as a tomato squarely landed against his cheek. What had he done t deserve this? He twisted this way and that to get out of the firing range. The chains held him in place not letting him escape. Then it all went quiet. The hooded figure had come back on stage.
“Kim Hee Chul shall burn here at the stake today for his involvement in the dark and unholy act of homosexuality”
Crazy hooded figure said what?! He was to burn? Heechul shrunk away from the flamed torch that they held in his hand. No this is wrong. He tried to scream, tried to tell them to leave him alone. The torch was moving closer and closer. He could almost feel the flames already. The crowd was cheering.
“Get rid of the fag”
And “ Burn in hell”
Where some of the phrases that he could hear being chanted over and over. He screamed as the twigs under his feet where set alight. The flames licked at his legs, burning his skin. He screamed, he yelled. The pain was unbearable. Tears fell constantly from his eyes. The chains grew hot scolding his skin. He threw his head back in pain. He threw his head to the side. He saw two males in the same position as him. Siwon? Hangeng? Not them too. If anything he cried out more. Their screams filled his ears wanting him to just black out.
The crowd screamed as rain started to fall from the sky. The rain swept over calming the fire and his screams. HE slumped forward in his chains, legs giving way. The hooded figure appeared in front of him, the swished their cloak and the scenery changed. He sat close to the edge of a hill looking over the sparkling blue water below. His legs were scared and blotchy where the flames had licked at his skin.
“Heechul “
He looked up to find Hangeng looking down at him. Hangeng face was half distorted, as if it had been engulfed in flames. Even the hand that reached out for him was distorted. He wanted to take the hand that was being offered to him but hadn’t he caused enough trouble?
BANG
Heechul watched as a bullet lodged itself into an unsuspecting Hangeng sending him over the cliff.
“NOOO”
Heechul tried to get up, to reach for Hangeng but his legs gave way. Arms from behind him helped him to stand before wrapping around him. Hangeng had… Tears fell from his eyes.
“Why don’t you ever see me?”
They helped him turn around and he was greeted by Siwon. His heart broke seeing the burns and scars covering Siwons once beautiful face. Siwon went to cup his cheek. Before his fingers even touched his cheeks Siwon fell sideways into the lake following Hangeng. Heechul collapsed to the floor, his legs giving way. He wanted to jump in, he wanted to follow them. Why wouldn’t his legs move? Why couldn’t he stand up?
The hooded figure appeared from behind him.
“You have a choice, save one or save the other but you can’t save both”
When you love someone with all your heart you’d give up your life for them. Is it right to choose the one you love who abandoned you over a best friend who always provided you with a sense of comfort and love? He had to decide but he didn’t know who. It wouldn’t be right to choose one over the other but if he didn’t they would both die.
“Times up”
What he looked up to find the hooded figure pointing at something in the distance. There were too golden lights before everything flashed into darkness.
Heechul sat up quickly breathing heavily. He touched his face, legs everything making sure everything was as it should be. His skin was still in the perfectly flawless condition he always kept it in. He sighed clutching his rapidly beating chest. He had the biggest need to check up on the other two boys. He slipped out of bed and walked over to Hangengs. He wrapped his arms around the sleeping man causing him to groan.
“Mmm He-Heechul?”
Hangeng shifted, not fully understanding what was going on. Heechul snapped out of his sorrow enough to recognise reality when he felt Hangeng move under him. He quickly jumped off of Hangeng and ran out of the room. Hangeng found him disgusting so why did he do that? Why even now after everything did he still love Hangeng?
Hangeng sat up looking at the door Heechul had just run through. What had just happened?
“Heechul…”
Heechul ran into Siwon and Kibums shared room. He knew Kibum was there but his need for the sense of comfort that Siwon always seemed to supply him with. He didn’t embrace Siwon like he did Hangeng. He just stood over Siwon watching as she shifted in his sleep. His dream didn’t reflect anything in real life but it still made him think. Siwon had told him something that had surprised him in his dream…no not a dream but a nightmare.
Siwons eyes opened as one of his tears had dropped onto his face.
“He-Heechul?”
“Sorry”
Heechul went to move away but Siwon grabbed his hand. Siwon didn’t understand what was going on in his half asleep state.
“Are you okay?”
“I’m fine so let me go”
Why was Heechul shaking? Why was Heechul trembling? Siwon rubbed his ees with his free hand before sitting up.
“Did you have a nightmare?”
“Ha since when does the mighty Kim Heechul have…argh”
Siwon pulled Heechul down so he fell on the bed. Siwon wrapped his arms around Heechul pulling him up so their eyes were on the same level. Heechul didn’t pull away from him instead he snuggled closer. Siwon wrapped him arms around the smaller boy who was shaking against him. Siwon rubbed Heechul back while still holding him close. They had somehow ended up in a position where Heechuls head was resting against Siwons warm chest directly above his heart.
Heechuls shaking slowly ceased, his breath slowing returned to a normal pace. Siwon continued to rub his back well after the he had fallen asleep. What Siwon wouldn’t give to have Heechul in his arm like this always? If he could he would just ran away just the two of them so they could always be like this. Siwons fists tightened. He couldn’t think like this. Doing so would just cause his heart to hurt so much more. Why did Heechul always have to come to him? Why did Heechul seek comfort in him? Siwon looked down to see Heechul lips slightly parted. He found himself leaning his head down. He wanted to taste those lips. What the hell was he thinking! He jerked his head back up. Oh Heechul you really make me crazy he thought.
Little did the two boys know that the other member in the room had heard everything.
A/N: Okay so i know it's really short, i promise to make it up to you all. Promise, I'm suffering from writers block and m assignments aren't helping but still that's no excuse. THe dream was actually a last minute thing, if something doesn't make sense in this post let me know and I'll get straight to fixing it.
Rating: PG-13 (small mention of violence, curse words)
Genre: Angst, Drama
Pairing: HanChul, Sichul (Unrequited love?)
Disclaimer: I only own the plot
Summary:
Heechul finds himself deeply in love with his fellow super junior member Hangeng. Could this love be a blessing or is it a curse threatening to change everything he knows.
MASTER LIST
Chapter 1|| Chapter 2|| Chapter 3|| Chapter 4|| Chapter 5|| Chapter 6 || Chapter 7 || Chapter 8 || Chapter 9|| Chapter 10a | | Chapter 10b || Chapter 11||Chapter 12 a|| Chapter 12b|| Chapter 13|| Chpater 14|| Chapter 15
They were all extremely busy preparing for their third album. Heechul collapsed on the couch after a 12 hour day of practice, and more practice and more practice. If he saw another page of sheet music he was going to go crazy.
Leeteuk collapsed down onto the couch next to him. Suddenly the room was completely crowded as all fifteen members were present. They turned the TV on and decided that they would have a movie night to just wind down. How had he ended up squashed between Hangeng and Siwon? Both of their arms were pressed against his. So awkward. Was it simply convenience that they all thought the same thing?
The movie was a perfect mix of humour and action. By the end of it all of the members were greatly relaxed and ready for bed. Heechul was even in a half asleep state. He felt the members moving around him to go to bed. He couldn’t be bothered getting up, looks like he would be sleeping on the couch tonight. Two arms slid under his body before picking him up. He snuggled closer to the warm chest. He felt waves of comfort wash over him as those arms were wrapped around him securely. Their heart beat acted as a lullaby for him. The next thing he knew his sheets were draped over him. IT wasn’t long at all before he completely fell under the veil of sleep.
Siwon walked back into the living room to find Kibum asleep, head leaning against the back of the couch. He picked the smaller boy up and made his way to their shared room. He made sure that Kibum was tucked in nicely before climbing into his own bed. He draped one of his arms over his eyes. His feelings for Heechul were driving him crazy. It wasn’t right the way he felt. It was wrong to want to hold Heechul in his arms and never let go. It was completely wrong…
Heechul tossed and turned in his sleep. He was stuck in a nightmare, a horrible nightmare.
Chains jingled around his wrists and ankles. He was standing on a stage. There was a crowd in front of him. He didn’t recognise any of them. The chains behind him were pulled. His back came into contact with a tall standing log. He struggled. What was going on? Why was he here? He felt his heart beat widely when a hooded figure moved towards him. They wrapped chains around him, securing him to the log. What the hell was happening?
The crowd let out a huge scream. The next thing he knew fruit was being hurled at him. He turned his head as a tomato squarely landed against his cheek. What had he done t deserve this? He twisted this way and that to get out of the firing range. The chains held him in place not letting him escape. Then it all went quiet. The hooded figure had come back on stage.
“Kim Hee Chul shall burn here at the stake today for his involvement in the dark and unholy act of homosexuality”
Crazy hooded figure said what?! He was to burn? Heechul shrunk away from the flamed torch that they held in his hand. No this is wrong. He tried to scream, tried to tell them to leave him alone. The torch was moving closer and closer. He could almost feel the flames already. The crowd was cheering.
“Get rid of the fag”
And “ Burn in hell”
Where some of the phrases that he could hear being chanted over and over. He screamed as the twigs under his feet where set alight. The flames licked at his legs, burning his skin. He screamed, he yelled. The pain was unbearable. Tears fell constantly from his eyes. The chains grew hot scolding his skin. He threw his head back in pain. He threw his head to the side. He saw two males in the same position as him. Siwon? Hangeng? Not them too. If anything he cried out more. Their screams filled his ears wanting him to just black out.
The crowd screamed as rain started to fall from the sky. The rain swept over calming the fire and his screams. HE slumped forward in his chains, legs giving way. The hooded figure appeared in front of him, the swished their cloak and the scenery changed. He sat close to the edge of a hill looking over the sparkling blue water below. His legs were scared and blotchy where the flames had licked at his skin.
“Heechul “
He looked up to find Hangeng looking down at him. Hangeng face was half distorted, as if it had been engulfed in flames. Even the hand that reached out for him was distorted. He wanted to take the hand that was being offered to him but hadn’t he caused enough trouble?
BANG
Heechul watched as a bullet lodged itself into an unsuspecting Hangeng sending him over the cliff.
“NOOO”
Heechul tried to get up, to reach for Hangeng but his legs gave way. Arms from behind him helped him to stand before wrapping around him. Hangeng had… Tears fell from his eyes.
“Why don’t you ever see me?”
They helped him turn around and he was greeted by Siwon. His heart broke seeing the burns and scars covering Siwons once beautiful face. Siwon went to cup his cheek. Before his fingers even touched his cheeks Siwon fell sideways into the lake following Hangeng. Heechul collapsed to the floor, his legs giving way. He wanted to jump in, he wanted to follow them. Why wouldn’t his legs move? Why couldn’t he stand up?
The hooded figure appeared from behind him.
“You have a choice, save one or save the other but you can’t save both”
When you love someone with all your heart you’d give up your life for them. Is it right to choose the one you love who abandoned you over a best friend who always provided you with a sense of comfort and love? He had to decide but he didn’t know who. It wouldn’t be right to choose one over the other but if he didn’t they would both die.
“Times up”
What he looked up to find the hooded figure pointing at something in the distance. There were too golden lights before everything flashed into darkness.
Heechul sat up quickly breathing heavily. He touched his face, legs everything making sure everything was as it should be. His skin was still in the perfectly flawless condition he always kept it in. He sighed clutching his rapidly beating chest. He had the biggest need to check up on the other two boys. He slipped out of bed and walked over to Hangengs. He wrapped his arms around the sleeping man causing him to groan.
“Mmm He-Heechul?”
Hangeng shifted, not fully understanding what was going on. Heechul snapped out of his sorrow enough to recognise reality when he felt Hangeng move under him. He quickly jumped off of Hangeng and ran out of the room. Hangeng found him disgusting so why did he do that? Why even now after everything did he still love Hangeng?
Hangeng sat up looking at the door Heechul had just run through. What had just happened?
“Heechul…”
Heechul ran into Siwon and Kibums shared room. He knew Kibum was there but his need for the sense of comfort that Siwon always seemed to supply him with. He didn’t embrace Siwon like he did Hangeng. He just stood over Siwon watching as she shifted in his sleep. His dream didn’t reflect anything in real life but it still made him think. Siwon had told him something that had surprised him in his dream…no not a dream but a nightmare.
Siwons eyes opened as one of his tears had dropped onto his face.
“He-Heechul?”
“Sorry”
Heechul went to move away but Siwon grabbed his hand. Siwon didn’t understand what was going on in his half asleep state.
“Are you okay?”
“I’m fine so let me go”
Why was Heechul shaking? Why was Heechul trembling? Siwon rubbed his ees with his free hand before sitting up.
“Did you have a nightmare?”
“Ha since when does the mighty Kim Heechul have…argh”
Siwon pulled Heechul down so he fell on the bed. Siwon wrapped his arms around Heechul pulling him up so their eyes were on the same level. Heechul didn’t pull away from him instead he snuggled closer. Siwon wrapped him arms around the smaller boy who was shaking against him. Siwon rubbed Heechul back while still holding him close. They had somehow ended up in a position where Heechuls head was resting against Siwons warm chest directly above his heart.
Heechuls shaking slowly ceased, his breath slowing returned to a normal pace. Siwon continued to rub his back well after the he had fallen asleep. What Siwon wouldn’t give to have Heechul in his arm like this always? If he could he would just ran away just the two of them so they could always be like this. Siwons fists tightened. He couldn’t think like this. Doing so would just cause his heart to hurt so much more. Why did Heechul always have to come to him? Why did Heechul seek comfort in him? Siwon looked down to see Heechul lips slightly parted. He found himself leaning his head down. He wanted to taste those lips. What the hell was he thinking! He jerked his head back up. Oh Heechul you really make me crazy he thought.
Little did the two boys know that the other member in the room had heard everything.
A/N: Okay so i know it's really short, i promise to make it up to you all. Promise, I'm suffering from writers block and m assignments aren't helping but still that's no excuse. THe dream was actually a last minute thing, if something doesn't make sense in this post let me know and I'll get straight to fixing it.