Live Free or Life Hard.
Life has let me down today, but on the upside it's more my fault for prematurely getting my hopes up. I mean really, when I think about how things could potentially turn out, it all seems a little silly to even hope for something so nice. What am I supposed to say? "Hey, I really like you, but I'm moving to Oregon at the end of March. Do you want to start up a relationship anyways, and maybe eventually you'll move out to Oregon and live with me? It'll be great! Three months is just enough time for me to fall madly in love with you, so then my move out west will be all that much more painful, but it will be worth it if you show up on the doorstep of my Oregon home and say you moved to the other end of the country just to be with me. So what do you say, wanna give it a shot?"
This is one of those times when I wish I could just shut off the emotion-driven part of my mind, and just let the logic-driven part take over for a while. Heart says "go for it", Brain says "keep your mouth shut and just enjoy the remaining time you have to hang out with her".
Zach said I should play it cool and act like nothing is up. That if it's going to happen, it will happen on it's own time. Thing is, I've never been good at waiting. Always jumping into things headfirst. My moving away kind of puts a time limit on things as well. That makes me want to act on my feelings even more.
I suppose the best thing to do is just wait and see. Don't get my hopes up, and try not to make an ass of myself.
On top of all this inner struggling I've got going on. I was up all night last night, and eventually got sick in the morning. Called in to work, and then ended up sleeping all day, so now I'm gonna be up all night, again. At least I'm feeling better now, but I certainly don't want to be up all night and then tired at work. I guess I'll just watch some Dr. Who on my laptop and hope to fall asleep at a decent time.
This is one of those times when I wish I could just shut off the emotion-driven part of my mind, and just let the logic-driven part take over for a while. Heart says "go for it", Brain says "keep your mouth shut and just enjoy the remaining time you have to hang out with her".
Zach said I should play it cool and act like nothing is up. That if it's going to happen, it will happen on it's own time. Thing is, I've never been good at waiting. Always jumping into things headfirst. My moving away kind of puts a time limit on things as well. That makes me want to act on my feelings even more.
I suppose the best thing to do is just wait and see. Don't get my hopes up, and try not to make an ass of myself.
On top of all this inner struggling I've got going on. I was up all night last night, and eventually got sick in the morning. Called in to work, and then ended up sleeping all day, so now I'm gonna be up all night, again. At least I'm feeling better now, but I certainly don't want to be up all night and then tired at work. I guess I'll just watch some Dr. Who on my laptop and hope to fall asleep at a decent time.