Ive had better days
I guess me and steven aint talkin for a while atleast.He hurt my feelings and totally blew me off, i thought he was a better friend than that,someone diff than the rest but hes not,their actually all the same,i dont know why i deal with little kids.Out looking for someones heart to break, what a mission huh?.... well ...
I talked to diana, shes picking me up tomorow in the morning to go to the show but im still upset with her.Heather seems to have alot on her mind also, she had a bad day at work and her friend greg made up something just to have mark pissed off at her.I told makr it wasent true so i guess mark and her are ok now.Man marks lucky to be able to go up to new york to visit her and the rest of the family, i wish i could go with him for new years eve, ill prolly sit around alone,feeling sorry for myself as usual.Im trying to enjoy life as much as i can but everyday there seems to be a problem for me.
Im still lookin for a new job,and i stil have to apply for college next semester, i guess it would be easier if i had a car but you know how that goes cant get a car unless you have a damn job...I wish that for new years i could hang with juan but i doubt that he'll want to be around me on new years eve seeing that its kind of a couple thing to hang together on new years.. well kinda i mean i guess you can hang with your friend but im also his ex.Uh well wish me luck, maybe we will get back together, i wish that he could see how much i want to change and how much i want him back.I really do care alot about him and if i didnt i wouldnt wanna change for him. but im really changing for myself also because i see now that i do need to stop alot of the dumb shit that i have been doing lately.I have quit drugs and i dont even drink that much anyways so thats not a problem,im chilling down on my anger with him,and last night seemed pretty ok, just the fact that i wanted to kiss him so bad that it hurt. CANT WAIT TO GO TO THE NEXT BIG THING TOMORROW and go pick on them emo kids, omg all them bands suck!!!! i think mikeys goin cause hes gotta sell shirts or some shit, dianas goin cause brians goin and im going cause everyone else is going, lmao i think 80% of my friends are just going for some odd reason.. lol.. nighty night!!!
I talked to diana, shes picking me up tomorow in the morning to go to the show but im still upset with her.Heather seems to have alot on her mind also, she had a bad day at work and her friend greg made up something just to have mark pissed off at her.I told makr it wasent true so i guess mark and her are ok now.Man marks lucky to be able to go up to new york to visit her and the rest of the family, i wish i could go with him for new years eve, ill prolly sit around alone,feeling sorry for myself as usual.Im trying to enjoy life as much as i can but everyday there seems to be a problem for me.
Im still lookin for a new job,and i stil have to apply for college next semester, i guess it would be easier if i had a car but you know how that goes cant get a car unless you have a damn job...I wish that for new years i could hang with juan but i doubt that he'll want to be around me on new years eve seeing that its kind of a couple thing to hang together on new years.. well kinda i mean i guess you can hang with your friend but im also his ex.Uh well wish me luck, maybe we will get back together, i wish that he could see how much i want to change and how much i want him back.I really do care alot about him and if i didnt i wouldnt wanna change for him. but im really changing for myself also because i see now that i do need to stop alot of the dumb shit that i have been doing lately.I have quit drugs and i dont even drink that much anyways so thats not a problem,im chilling down on my anger with him,and last night seemed pretty ok, just the fact that i wanted to kiss him so bad that it hurt. CANT WAIT TO GO TO THE NEXT BIG THING TOMORROW and go pick on them emo kids, omg all them bands suck!!!! i think mikeys goin cause hes gotta sell shirts or some shit, dianas goin cause brians goin and im going cause everyone else is going, lmao i think 80% of my friends are just going for some odd reason.. lol.. nighty night!!!