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darkgreylenses in suicidesupport

why do I bother?

Oct 22, 2009 07:25

Anyone else feel completely and utterly pointless? I don't even know why I bother living really, don't know why I bother doing anything. Here's everyone else my age, college students in their freshman year, the majority experimenting with drugs and sex and alcohol, and I just stand at the back abstaining all the way, not trying anything ever, ( Read more... )

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anneinside October 22 2009, 23:14:31 UTC

Are you seeing a psychiatrist for medication? Have you considered or are you seeing a therapist? Both these things can make your quality of life better. Don't give up. Try them.

darkgreylenses October 23 2009, 00:25:18 UTC

I've spoken to my mother about the way I feel, and she just passes it off as adolescent ups and downs (I am 16 years old) and thinks I don't need to see a psychiatrist, be on meds or anything. At first, I wanted to agree with her, but now, I'm not so sure... she doesn't like the idea of messing with my brain chemistry and doesn't think there's anything very wrong with me that needs treatment anyway. If there's nothing wrong with me then why do I always end up feeling so low, and that life isn't worth living is my question, but inevitably, she decides whether or not I go to the doctor about this. I just don't like the feelings of inherent misery when I should just be trying to live my life.

fotia November 30 2009, 08:43:27 UTC

my teenage years were definitely more tumultuous than now, though I've done some pretty radical things since then which may have taken the usual crazy mood swings away, but other problems of mine have progressed. Don't listen to people who tell you there is nothing wrong with you. If you feel there is then it's your right to investigate that.

I have two views about this.. one is that if I had been acknowledging my problem at a younger age then I may have had years of better living up until now and my life might have been much more progressed.. in another sense I think there are things I learned for myself in that time that, had I given up my fate to others in certain ways, then I may have actually messed things up more..

Maybe I'm sounding a bit vague but, just do what you think is right for you and don't let people try to tell you nothing's wrong and that it's normal. What people told me was 'normal' was nothing of the like, because they assumed they knew what was going on and they didn't know. Only I knew.

anneinside October 23 2009, 02:29:24 UTC

You said, "Here's everyone else my age, college students in their freshman year,..." so I am assuming that you are in college (although most freshmen are 17 or 18 years old) and if so, you should go to the college health center for help. If you are in high school, you might consider going to a free clinic or ask your mother to take you to your regular doctor. That could be a good start toward treatment.

darkgreylenses October 23 2009, 19:59:13 UTC

I'm too young for my year, I should really be in the year below but I was sent to school at the age of 4 when other children were 5.
Would they really think I qualify as needing help, I wonder? I have days when something happens that makes me feel positive and good and I think life is fine, then the next day I'll feel awful. They might just say I'm a typical teenager with mood swings.

anneinside October 23 2009, 22:16:21 UTC

As you know, we can't diagnose you but if you think you have a problem the only way to find out is to go to a doctor. You won't know until you try.