WHATS WRONG?
Whats wrong lately i've been asked that question a lot lately. Well for once i guess instead of being phillisophical i'll just use this thing for what it is for. First of all i have a lot of frustration and anger built up inside that i cannot get rid of , and second i want to give up , surrender whatever you want to call it. For someone that hates to lose this is the worst thing that i could have allowed happen but recently i have nothing to grasp onto to stay in the game . The one thing i have always wanted (even more then the presidency) was happiness, but lately i have come to realise that this will never be. I keep finding it only to lose it, and sometimes i've wanted it so bad that i imagined it was there only to discover that i was hurting myself worse then any knife ever could.I've tried to sit there and wait for it, i've tried to go and search for it, i've even tried just trying to make it happen but none of theses works. I just dont know what to do any more. I don't see the silver lineing everyone is always talking, about yet i know that it is there and that one day i will be in it . But do i truely want to hold on and wait that long. All that i have helped do or did to right the wrongs and the god(s) can't give me this one little thing in return . Then i ask you why should i continue on that path?