Lies dancing in my mind with no place to go, please make them stop!

[suicidebuterfly]

I cant take it anymore. you never choose who you love, or why you loved them in the first place, you just do, so why does it hurt so much.....???why cant i make his lies stop repeating in my head? why did he lie to me, hurt me?!?!?! it happens all to much, the pain love inflicts. it happpened 1ce, 2ce, 3 times......and i still havent learned, no matter how much i scream, no matter how much i cry, bleed, or feel dead inside, im always running from their lies, their inflicting of wounds. i hate love!!! it shouldnt exist. its the reason we have so much pain, jealousy, death, misery, bleeding, murder, EVERYTHING...!!!!!it just wont stop, the things i see and hear that were never there, love turns me crazy, deadly, medicated for my own protection. how many times do i have to sa never again until it actually becomes real?////////////i have to leave now\\\\\\\\\\\\\\i have to forget the pain/////////

Marlene
Stanka Farfalla( tired butterfly)