no one here for me, fending for myself, where is my escape from lonliness? where are you?
I am so confused this year. i feel as though no one knows me anymore except danielle, darrinika, britt and steph. but steph has her crew, darr is always with other people and i don't seem to have enough time to communicate with anyone. Ive been here for two years, and first day of 10th grade, i feel as though im invisible. and i like it because i have nothing to distract me, but it hurts because im alone. and i can't escape the memories of when i felt complete, even though it was temporary, i wanted it to last forever. so because of my emptiness in my personal life, im becoming drowned in schoolwork(which isnt the worst thing). i just wish i could find someone who wont leave me, wont lie to me or hurt me, who will be complete because of me. is it so much to ask? is it too much to hope for happiness?