Finally I post Again....
Tired, tired, tired. This is why I havent been posting. That, and it's easier to post on Myspace since someone is always sending me a message LOL. I was thinking that I should just copy and paste because well, I miss this site alot, and I'm always reading someone else's posts..... maybe someone wants to read mine?
Things have changed alot, and I'm not sure if it's for the better or for the worst. My ex.... ever since he got with his gf, has gotten arrested, and lost his job. Karma, prolly? Some say he'll lose is gf next.... and he prolly will.
Yes, I'm still in love with him, and he knows it. When I told him, he said, " I don't know what to say to that. I can't answer you because I have a gf. As a friend, I would say move on, but at your own pace.... but I can't answer you and I really don't know what to say..."
I also asked him if he was in love with his gf, and at first he told me that shouldn't even be asking those questions, " and then he said, "Well, I'm in love with some aspects of her. But to be honest, I really feel like I rushed into our relationship. Our relationship is ok, but it's not perfect. It's had a lot of bad side effects-- everything has gone downhill since I got with her-- none of my friends really want to talk to me anymore-- everytime I ask to hang out, they brush me off, especially her older brother........but I'm not going to break up with her because I feel that would be foul. I've never really been one to regret what I do, so I'll just wait until it plays out...." which to be honest sounds stupid to me... if I felt like I rushed into something I would cut it off right away...but everyone is different.... plus he has known their family since he was little, so I could see why he'd be careful about cutting it off. But still ...LOL
I sitll havent found a job....a legit one anyway. I've been driving this hispanic chick around.... she's an escort and I drive her around to her calls.... 60 a call.... last night I made close to 300....CASH. She needs someone to drive her around like crazy this week, so I'll do that.
Im tired as hell....my best friend has been wearing me down with her bf bullshit, I still havent found a bf and I don't know if I want one... lot's of fucking drama that I really don't need. Just tired of it really.
Things have changed alot, and I'm not sure if it's for the better or for the worst. My ex.... ever since he got with his gf, has gotten arrested, and lost his job. Karma, prolly? Some say he'll lose is gf next.... and he prolly will.
Yes, I'm still in love with him, and he knows it. When I told him, he said, " I don't know what to say to that. I can't answer you because I have a gf. As a friend, I would say move on, but at your own pace.... but I can't answer you and I really don't know what to say..."
I also asked him if he was in love with his gf, and at first he told me that shouldn't even be asking those questions, " and then he said, "Well, I'm in love with some aspects of her. But to be honest, I really feel like I rushed into our relationship. Our relationship is ok, but it's not perfect. It's had a lot of bad side effects-- everything has gone downhill since I got with her-- none of my friends really want to talk to me anymore-- everytime I ask to hang out, they brush me off, especially her older brother........but I'm not going to break up with her because I feel that would be foul. I've never really been one to regret what I do, so I'll just wait until it plays out...." which to be honest sounds stupid to me... if I felt like I rushed into something I would cut it off right away...but everyone is different.... plus he has known their family since he was little, so I could see why he'd be careful about cutting it off. But still ...LOL
I sitll havent found a job....a legit one anyway. I've been driving this hispanic chick around.... she's an escort and I drive her around to her calls.... 60 a call.... last night I made close to 300....CASH. She needs someone to drive her around like crazy this week, so I'll do that.
Im tired as hell....my best friend has been wearing me down with her bf bullshit, I still havent found a bf and I don't know if I want one... lot's of fucking drama that I really don't need. Just tired of it really.