(t)here I go
Years ago my heart was broken and I decided to learn to regret nothing. Some days is harder than others. But today, I am in a fork. A decision I need to make very soon will impact not just the next few years, but the rest of my life... I will try my hardest to not have regrets, but I think I will always wonder what my life would be like if I chose the other route.
Sometimes I think I need to do this, to prove I can. Other moments I don't care about proving anything. I want the easier path, the one closer to home, familiar... there is a reason I haven't ever gone far. This is where I belong.
But I'm 30 with only a dog to my name. This is when I need to do it, if ever. People with more responsibilities, etc. would kill for this type of opportunity and here it sits in my lap. All I have to do is literally click "Yes, I accept".
Can I leave all those kids? I will miss so many firsts... It makes me want to fall over thinking about it.
And then there is this whole new other awesome thing going on in my life, finally.... and what? I just pick up and walk away. My expectations aren't great, but it has been pretty great.
And so on.
Sometimes I think I need to do this, to prove I can. Other moments I don't care about proving anything. I want the easier path, the one closer to home, familiar... there is a reason I haven't ever gone far. This is where I belong.
But I'm 30 with only a dog to my name. This is when I need to do it, if ever. People with more responsibilities, etc. would kill for this type of opportunity and here it sits in my lap. All I have to do is literally click "Yes, I accept".
Can I leave all those kids? I will miss so many firsts... It makes me want to fall over thinking about it.
And then there is this whole new other awesome thing going on in my life, finally.... and what? I just pick up and walk away. My expectations aren't great, but it has been pretty great.
And so on.