What A Dumb Fucking Cunt
I am the dumbest, most jackassy, fucking, obsessed loser ass drama queen dumb fucking cunt ever!
Why am I so desperate for male attention? I have many dreams about kissing guys. Mostly celebrities, but it's though I can feel their lips pressed against mine, like it was real. All I want is to cuddle with someone and kiss someone and just be with some guy who's nice and funny and not a fucking psycho 80 year old. It's disgusting, the guys, that are attracted to me.
So I was in a mood to just tell anyone anything, and so I was talking to Matt for a few minutes, then his away message went up, so I decided to leave him a message like:
I know you're not there, but I just wanted to ask you something. I know it's childish and all, but I just wanted to know if you ever liked me. You don't have to ever talk to me again, but it's just something I always wondered. Don't lie to me and please don't tell me what you think I want to hear. Again, it's not like we see or talk to each other much, but I just wanted to know for some dumbass reason.
It wasn't EXACTLY like that, or in that particular order, but that's basically what I told him, and he signed off. I'm such a dumb fuck. I over do it. I'm a drama queen, and I just try to hard. I don't mean to. It's just that I've always been obsessed with trying to be with someone. Although, I realized that Matt is a drama queen/king himself. He's got some issues he needs to deal with. He's too stiff sometimes and needs to get that stick out of his ass. He dwells on some things too much. [Gee, a hipocrite in our midst maybe?]
Guys suck. I should just turn into a lesbian. Although girls are worse than guys sometimes. I'll just grow up to be alone and fat[ter], with A LOT of cats.
I've finally got to the point that I don't fucking care that I'm fat. I mean, I'm still not happy about it, but it's not like I'm trying to do much about it, so I still bitch sometimes, but I'm not as obsessed about it as I used to be. FUCK. FUCKING DUMBASS MOTHER FUCKING BITCH ASS GOD DAMNED MOTHER FUCKING CUNT!
That's exactly what I think about myself. Nice, huh? I'm just in one of those moods again I suppose. It's all been said and done before, so obviously this isn't anything new.
So I saw someone from high school today. He came in and we talked about old so-called "friends" and after the convo we had, I just wondered if, out of all the girls that I hung out with at the time, I was the only one that NEVER did anything with him. Seriously, I think every girl I knew and hung out with him pretty much either screwed him or kissed him at least or something. Besides the fact that he's a man whore, it kind of made me think about that for some reason. I was obsessed with him at one time too. He's better off now then the last time I saw him. I do miss him, but it's cool.
So yea...my hands are looking like I have leprosy or something, and I need to make an appointment to get my wisdom teeth pulled, cuz they started hurting again today.
Other then that, life is fucking dandy. How are things going on your side of the cave these days?
Sorry I haven't been able to check up on the rest of your lives. I haven't felt like coming online much anymore. Catch me up if you'd like!
♥Laura♥
Why am I so desperate for male attention? I have many dreams about kissing guys. Mostly celebrities, but it's though I can feel their lips pressed against mine, like it was real. All I want is to cuddle with someone and kiss someone and just be with some guy who's nice and funny and not a fucking psycho 80 year old. It's disgusting, the guys, that are attracted to me.
So I was in a mood to just tell anyone anything, and so I was talking to Matt for a few minutes, then his away message went up, so I decided to leave him a message like:
I know you're not there, but I just wanted to ask you something. I know it's childish and all, but I just wanted to know if you ever liked me. You don't have to ever talk to me again, but it's just something I always wondered. Don't lie to me and please don't tell me what you think I want to hear. Again, it's not like we see or talk to each other much, but I just wanted to know for some dumbass reason.
It wasn't EXACTLY like that, or in that particular order, but that's basically what I told him, and he signed off. I'm such a dumb fuck. I over do it. I'm a drama queen, and I just try to hard. I don't mean to. It's just that I've always been obsessed with trying to be with someone. Although, I realized that Matt is a drama queen/king himself. He's got some issues he needs to deal with. He's too stiff sometimes and needs to get that stick out of his ass. He dwells on some things too much. [Gee, a hipocrite in our midst maybe?]
Guys suck. I should just turn into a lesbian. Although girls are worse than guys sometimes. I'll just grow up to be alone and fat[ter], with A LOT of cats.
I've finally got to the point that I don't fucking care that I'm fat. I mean, I'm still not happy about it, but it's not like I'm trying to do much about it, so I still bitch sometimes, but I'm not as obsessed about it as I used to be. FUCK. FUCKING DUMBASS MOTHER FUCKING BITCH ASS GOD DAMNED MOTHER FUCKING CUNT!
That's exactly what I think about myself. Nice, huh? I'm just in one of those moods again I suppose. It's all been said and done before, so obviously this isn't anything new.
So I saw someone from high school today. He came in and we talked about old so-called "friends" and after the convo we had, I just wondered if, out of all the girls that I hung out with at the time, I was the only one that NEVER did anything with him. Seriously, I think every girl I knew and hung out with him pretty much either screwed him or kissed him at least or something. Besides the fact that he's a man whore, it kind of made me think about that for some reason. I was obsessed with him at one time too. He's better off now then the last time I saw him. I do miss him, but it's cool.
So yea...my hands are looking like I have leprosy or something, and I need to make an appointment to get my wisdom teeth pulled, cuz they started hurting again today.
Other then that, life is fucking dandy. How are things going on your side of the cave these days?
Sorry I haven't been able to check up on the rest of your lives. I haven't felt like coming online much anymore. Catch me up if you'd like!
♥Laura♥