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Tom has now booked his tickets! He's coming here on the 18th of July, which is exactly 3 weeks and a day away. Seems like ages!! And time isn't exactly going very fast since I have absolutely nothing to do. I was supposed to go to Raumanmeren Juhannus, but the tickets were sold out before I got one. Typical. But I guess it's a good thing because the thought of sleeping in a crowded tent for 3 nights and drinking 3 days straight didn't exactly appeal to me very much.
I hate the fact that I don't trust Tom. I'm always worried when he goes out, especially now that he is so far away. Just when I get worried, I get flasbacks of the times when Tom was unfaithful to me during the fall. True we were not together back then, but we were still seeing each other and I think it was wrong that he kissed other girls. Especially that one time when he kissed a girl and then afterwards came and slept over in my bed!!! I know I shouldn't dwell on the past anymore because he has changed and I doubt he would do anything like that ever again...But still. It's just the fact that back then he kissed another girl without even telling me about it afterwards. I had to hear it from James. At least when I kissed Simon I told Tom about it the very same night because I felt so guilty! Anyway, most of me trusts him, but there is part of me that is very very scared of history repeating itself.
I wish I had something to do!! I'm going into town tomorrow with my sister, Noora. I'm taking her make-up shopping, yay! She's going to her rippileiri (confirmation camp) next week and she's really excited. I remember my rippileiri 5 years ago. Can't believe it's been so long!! It was such an exciting time and such a memorable experience. I hope she has as much fun as I did!
Well, now it's back to Angels and Demons. Quite a good book. Can't decide which one's better tho, that or Da Vinci Code.
I hate the fact that I don't trust Tom. I'm always worried when he goes out, especially now that he is so far away. Just when I get worried, I get flasbacks of the times when Tom was unfaithful to me during the fall. True we were not together back then, but we were still seeing each other and I think it was wrong that he kissed other girls. Especially that one time when he kissed a girl and then afterwards came and slept over in my bed!!! I know I shouldn't dwell on the past anymore because he has changed and I doubt he would do anything like that ever again...But still. It's just the fact that back then he kissed another girl without even telling me about it afterwards. I had to hear it from James. At least when I kissed Simon I told Tom about it the very same night because I felt so guilty! Anyway, most of me trusts him, but there is part of me that is very very scared of history repeating itself.
I wish I had something to do!! I'm going into town tomorrow with my sister, Noora. I'm taking her make-up shopping, yay! She's going to her rippileiri (confirmation camp) next week and she's really excited. I remember my rippileiri 5 years ago. Can't believe it's been so long!! It was such an exciting time and such a memorable experience. I hope she has as much fun as I did!
Well, now it's back to Angels and Demons. Quite a good book. Can't decide which one's better tho, that or Da Vinci Code.