It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas...
Well, no. Not really. But that is a really good song.
I've been working soooooo much and it's making me really tired.
I also smell like Garlic.
My dad comes home tomorrow...I was really enjoying the independence. I guess it just shows me that I really am ready for college. I was thinking about it, and whether this is good or bad, it is definitly a fact that I dont spend that much time with my family anymore. So really, I dont think that moving to Ann Arbor is going to be that big of an adjustment.
WHERE IS MY ROOMMATE?!
I feel that something is wrong with me. I went so long without any interest, and then I got it back, and now I think its on the way out again. What the heez? If this is connected to my "self-esteem" problems, Im very annoyed. Perhaps I feel like he isnt reciprocating, and so Im just trying to distance myself? I dont know. Im not good at this boys business. Look at my god damn track record.
San Francisco next weekend for my cousin's bat mitzvah. I have to an alliyah. Meaning that I need to stand on the bimah at a conservative shuel. I hate doing that. I always feel so uncomfortable and angry that my dad and sister arent allowed up there. And last time that Steph and I were up there for an alliyah, Steph was told that she couldn't touch the arc because her skirt was too short (it wasn't). I just hate how close-minded that is. It makes me SO angry, and it makes me want to scream in their faces that THIS is why so many Jews aren't active, and THIS is why people dont go to shuel every week and observe Shabbat. Because they don't feel like they're welcome. I don't even feel welcome, and I am a very religious Jew. But, because I am reform, and don't observe all of the Shabbat laws, I will never be as good of a Jew as them. I cannot stand that. Want to piss me off? Tell me that reform doesnt count. Tell me Im a half-breed. I DARE you to to come up with a halfway decent argument.
Anyway, other than that, life is good. I hope that yours is too!
Love,
Diana
I've been working soooooo much and it's making me really tired.
I also smell like Garlic.
My dad comes home tomorrow...I was really enjoying the independence. I guess it just shows me that I really am ready for college. I was thinking about it, and whether this is good or bad, it is definitly a fact that I dont spend that much time with my family anymore. So really, I dont think that moving to Ann Arbor is going to be that big of an adjustment.
WHERE IS MY ROOMMATE?!
I feel that something is wrong with me. I went so long without any interest, and then I got it back, and now I think its on the way out again. What the heez? If this is connected to my "self-esteem" problems, Im very annoyed. Perhaps I feel like he isnt reciprocating, and so Im just trying to distance myself? I dont know. Im not good at this boys business. Look at my god damn track record.
San Francisco next weekend for my cousin's bat mitzvah. I have to an alliyah. Meaning that I need to stand on the bimah at a conservative shuel. I hate doing that. I always feel so uncomfortable and angry that my dad and sister arent allowed up there. And last time that Steph and I were up there for an alliyah, Steph was told that she couldn't touch the arc because her skirt was too short (it wasn't). I just hate how close-minded that is. It makes me SO angry, and it makes me want to scream in their faces that THIS is why so many Jews aren't active, and THIS is why people dont go to shuel every week and observe Shabbat. Because they don't feel like they're welcome. I don't even feel welcome, and I am a very religious Jew. But, because I am reform, and don't observe all of the Shabbat laws, I will never be as good of a Jew as them. I cannot stand that. Want to piss me off? Tell me that reform doesnt count. Tell me Im a half-breed. I DARE you to to come up with a halfway decent argument.
Anyway, other than that, life is good. I hope that yours is too!
Love,
Diana