GAH
Alright...in 19 days I'm going to be a college student. I'm going to be sleeping in a different bed, I'm going to be living with someone that I don't know, and I'm going to have to be totally self-reliant on a day-to-day basis.
And I'm doing all of this without my mom.
Sometimes I wonder how my relationship with my mom would be if she were still living today. I imagine that we would fight, but would we be as close as we were before? Would I tell her things going on in my life? Would she know how terrified I am to leave home?
On the other hand, I cannot wait to get out of here. The events of the past couple days have reinforced my contempt for this town. And no, not because ALL of us are spoiled and materialistic, but because no one here can keep their mouth shut. People are always screwing with each other's lives, and getting and repeating information that they have no business knowing. I am excited to move to an environment where I don't have to fear the mothers of West Bloomfield. I'm excited to move out of my house, to come home when I want to, to not have to answer to someone 24 hours a day.
But I'm so scared at the same time. I'm scared of not having someone keeping me (mostly) out of trouble with their rules. Im scared of classes. I'm scared of meeting people, even though I'm so excited to meet people.
I'm an emotional freaking basket case and its pissing me off!!!!
But anyway, life is good otherwise. Work is good. Friends are good. I love you all! :)
Love,
Diana
And I'm doing all of this without my mom.
Sometimes I wonder how my relationship with my mom would be if she were still living today. I imagine that we would fight, but would we be as close as we were before? Would I tell her things going on in my life? Would she know how terrified I am to leave home?
On the other hand, I cannot wait to get out of here. The events of the past couple days have reinforced my contempt for this town. And no, not because ALL of us are spoiled and materialistic, but because no one here can keep their mouth shut. People are always screwing with each other's lives, and getting and repeating information that they have no business knowing. I am excited to move to an environment where I don't have to fear the mothers of West Bloomfield. I'm excited to move out of my house, to come home when I want to, to not have to answer to someone 24 hours a day.
But I'm so scared at the same time. I'm scared of not having someone keeping me (mostly) out of trouble with their rules. Im scared of classes. I'm scared of meeting people, even though I'm so excited to meet people.
I'm an emotional freaking basket case and its pissing me off!!!!
But anyway, life is good otherwise. Work is good. Friends are good. I love you all! :)
Love,
Diana