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so ive turned to this. livejournal. because i cant even stand the idea of looking at my friends anymore. because ive never been so terrified in my life. because i am sitting here and havent showered in days eating cake out of a tin because i cant find the energy to make any food.
i cant find the energy to do much at all. i havent left this chair since i sat in it. ive stopped lurking your facebook though. what was my only connection with you now only causes me pain seeing you slowly fall out of love with me. restricted by law to be unable to tell me yourself. so i rely on those cybernetic cues to create the slashes on my heart. how did it ever go this far? i dont even feel real anymore. i dont feel alive. i dont feel anything except an incessant ache.
i cant help but feel my time is up... and soon i'll just fade away.
i cant find the energy to do much at all. i havent left this chair since i sat in it. ive stopped lurking your facebook though. what was my only connection with you now only causes me pain seeing you slowly fall out of love with me. restricted by law to be unable to tell me yourself. so i rely on those cybernetic cues to create the slashes on my heart. how did it ever go this far? i dont even feel real anymore. i dont feel alive. i dont feel anything except an incessant ache.
i cant help but feel my time is up... and soon i'll just fade away.