So this is the new year
For the first time in 10 years I am home before the first sunrise of the new year.
We meet again, LJ.
Quark said to me today, there is no air.
Usually there is an air of promise, each year, on the dawn of the first day of the year.
This year i drove home in smog alone, and I feel ok.
I spent my new years eve with people I love and I am ok.
This Christmas for the first time, I didn't feel sad. I didn't feel lonely. I blamed this lack of emotion to being busy but really it wasn't.
I feel ok. Nothing exceptional. Just ok.
Ok is good. I am happy to feel ok.
I feel a bit old, but that is ok too.
I can't say my year has been exceptional, but I guess it wasn't ordinary.
I made many new friends and achieved many goals. I did many things I've always wanted to do, little things like go to Coachella and be good at lindy.
I did a really good job at expanding my network, and building my brand.
As always I spent more than I earned, but experienced many new things that I do not regret.
But I find that this is that year that I realized that the simple things I have in my life like my friends are the best part of my life, wherever in the world I may be. And I am thankful for friends I will always have and can always call, and a mom who loves and supports me in all my endeavors, whether or not they fail.
I find myself still with many dreams and many wants, but I am in no rush to get them, and am happy to take things one step at a time.
I do long for a life of stability, but have also learned to accept that this is my life, one that is nomadic, and I feel blessed to be able to experience all that I go through.
I crave for time to do all the things that I want, but am happy to always be occupied as its better than being bored.
This year I wish for a breakthrough in my career and I still wish for love but I wait for it patiently. But most of all I wish for happiness and fulfillment for all my friends desires.
I miss you today, Goldie.
We meet again, LJ.
Quark said to me today, there is no air.
Usually there is an air of promise, each year, on the dawn of the first day of the year.
This year i drove home in smog alone, and I feel ok.
I spent my new years eve with people I love and I am ok.
This Christmas for the first time, I didn't feel sad. I didn't feel lonely. I blamed this lack of emotion to being busy but really it wasn't.
I feel ok. Nothing exceptional. Just ok.
Ok is good. I am happy to feel ok.
I feel a bit old, but that is ok too.
I can't say my year has been exceptional, but I guess it wasn't ordinary.
I made many new friends and achieved many goals. I did many things I've always wanted to do, little things like go to Coachella and be good at lindy.
I did a really good job at expanding my network, and building my brand.
As always I spent more than I earned, but experienced many new things that I do not regret.
But I find that this is that year that I realized that the simple things I have in my life like my friends are the best part of my life, wherever in the world I may be. And I am thankful for friends I will always have and can always call, and a mom who loves and supports me in all my endeavors, whether or not they fail.
I find myself still with many dreams and many wants, but I am in no rush to get them, and am happy to take things one step at a time.
I do long for a life of stability, but have also learned to accept that this is my life, one that is nomadic, and I feel blessed to be able to experience all that I go through.
I crave for time to do all the things that I want, but am happy to always be occupied as its better than being bored.
This year I wish for a breakthrough in my career and I still wish for love but I wait for it patiently. But most of all I wish for happiness and fulfillment for all my friends desires.
I miss you today, Goldie.