Show Them Your Progress.
I don't feel like I'm doing anything right anymore. No matter what I do, Pharaoh-sama always seems to hate me more for it. I'm tired of school because I can't pay attention in the classes, since I'm worried about home; I don't even care about the colleges anymore. I even went with Yuugi to and see one and then Pharaoh-sama screamed at me the next day...I thought he would like that we went to look at the colleges.
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And I'm afraid that Yuugi is going to take Pharaoh-sama's side. I hate that there are even sides but it stings when I think about who he would choose if he had to. It wouldn't be me, not at all, and I don't know why it stings so much but I...
*sigh* I don't even know.
We had such a great time looking at the college and eating pizza and playing games at the arcade. Even the movie was great, with the hot chocolate. I...I probably shouldn't have fallen asleep downstairs, but being so close to Yuugi made me feel...happy. I don't want to lose that feeling but if he had to choose...I know it wouldn't be my side that he took.
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I want everything to be better again. I don't want Pharaoh-sama to hate me anymore. He promised our fight could be over and it's not, even if he says it is. I wanted to drop it but I don't think he will. I have this horrible feeling that he's going to hold it over me forever and it'll always be this terrible, earth-shattering mistake that I've made.
I don't know what to do anymore. I keep trying my hardest to make everything all right and it's all just going downhill.
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I wonder if I shouldn't start looking for a different place to stay during the summer...until I can get a dorm at college. I don't think Pharaoh-sama wants me here anymore.
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And I'm afraid that Yuugi is going to take Pharaoh-sama's side. I hate that there are even sides but it stings when I think about who he would choose if he had to. It wouldn't be me, not at all, and I don't know why it stings so much but I...
*sigh* I don't even know.
We had such a great time looking at the college and eating pizza and playing games at the arcade. Even the movie was great, with the hot chocolate. I...I probably shouldn't have fallen asleep downstairs, but being so close to Yuugi made me feel...happy. I don't want to lose that feeling but if he had to choose...I know it wouldn't be my side that he took.
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I want everything to be better again. I don't want Pharaoh-sama to hate me anymore. He promised our fight could be over and it's not, even if he says it is. I wanted to drop it but I don't think he will. I have this horrible feeling that he's going to hold it over me forever and it'll always be this terrible, earth-shattering mistake that I've made.
I don't know what to do anymore. I keep trying my hardest to make everything all right and it's all just going downhill.
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I wonder if I shouldn't start looking for a different place to stay during the summer...until I can get a dorm at college. I don't think Pharaoh-sama wants me here anymore.
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