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I still love Frankk. I have a feeling I won't ever get another relationship about that. My aunt told me you know when you are inlove. You have no doubts. I do believe I was inlove. We broke up because of my move and his bad mood. I cried. But I think he cried more then I did that night. But I have done nothing but cry for the past week.
It was really hard on me. I'm still really destraught over it. It's really super bad. It's not that I'm fighting for him. I'm happy if he's happy but the memories are unbarable. I don't feel special anymore. The only way I ever felt special was with him. I didn't even feel special with anyone else. Maybe it will work out in the end. If not that means there's someone better. I Have a high selfesteem, I know I can find someone. I just want him. He's not ready for it though. No point of forcing anything. We are still friends. However we had a fight tonight. Me him and wayde, best friends all got into this huge fight because we are stubborn, hypocritical, and selfish. We all sort of clashed tonight. It was really rough. I know no matter what Wayde and I will be best friends. It's just with frankk and me, our situation and his attitude towards everything. I haven't been myself around him lately.
I should also get this out.
I have at least 4 kidney stones. Which is causeing Kidney failure. Which is causing my already messed up heart because of the murmur to act even worse. Which means I'm really sick. Which means I have a high chance of dying. It's always something. It's seriously never a dull moment. And to all happen at once? GAY.
I lost 12 pounds in one week. That is how sick I am. But my boobs got bigger? I needed to get a new Bra. And speaking about that...
DetrimentalColor: i left my eve6 cd downstairs
kKk i l l A r o9: ok
DetrimentalColor: im not getting it
kKk i l l A r o9: good
kKk i l l A r o9: my bra is half off
kKk i l l A r o9: and im too lazy to put it back on
DetrimentalColor: hahhaah
DetrimentalColor: cant help you there
DetrimentalColor: even tho i do a better job of putting it back on
kKk i l l A r o9: hahahahahahah yeah you do
kKk i l l A r o9: 'but I was all lotiony
DetrimentalColor: anad faster
kKk i l l A r o9: yeah
kKk i l l A r o9: better at taking it off too
DetrimentalColor: so, it made it more challenging
DetrimentalColor: yup
DetrimentalColor: and i dont even practice
DetrimentalColor: i pitty the guys that practice, and still fail
(we really aren't that perverted. We acted like we were like that but we weren't at all. Thats what I loved about him.)
But yeah.
so
Later?
It was really hard on me. I'm still really destraught over it. It's really super bad. It's not that I'm fighting for him. I'm happy if he's happy but the memories are unbarable. I don't feel special anymore. The only way I ever felt special was with him. I didn't even feel special with anyone else. Maybe it will work out in the end. If not that means there's someone better. I Have a high selfesteem, I know I can find someone. I just want him. He's not ready for it though. No point of forcing anything. We are still friends. However we had a fight tonight. Me him and wayde, best friends all got into this huge fight because we are stubborn, hypocritical, and selfish. We all sort of clashed tonight. It was really rough. I know no matter what Wayde and I will be best friends. It's just with frankk and me, our situation and his attitude towards everything. I haven't been myself around him lately.
I should also get this out.
I have at least 4 kidney stones. Which is causeing Kidney failure. Which is causing my already messed up heart because of the murmur to act even worse. Which means I'm really sick. Which means I have a high chance of dying. It's always something. It's seriously never a dull moment. And to all happen at once? GAY.
I lost 12 pounds in one week. That is how sick I am. But my boobs got bigger? I needed to get a new Bra. And speaking about that...
DetrimentalColor: i left my eve6 cd downstairs
kKk i l l A r o9: ok
DetrimentalColor: im not getting it
kKk i l l A r o9: good
kKk i l l A r o9: my bra is half off
kKk i l l A r o9: and im too lazy to put it back on
DetrimentalColor: hahhaah
DetrimentalColor: cant help you there
DetrimentalColor: even tho i do a better job of putting it back on
kKk i l l A r o9: hahahahahahah yeah you do
kKk i l l A r o9: 'but I was all lotiony
DetrimentalColor: anad faster
kKk i l l A r o9: yeah
kKk i l l A r o9: better at taking it off too
DetrimentalColor: so, it made it more challenging
DetrimentalColor: yup
DetrimentalColor: and i dont even practice
DetrimentalColor: i pitty the guys that practice, and still fail
(we really aren't that perverted. We acted like we were like that but we weren't at all. Thats what I loved about him.)
But yeah.
so
Later?