OF COURSE
I'm pretty positive noone reads this so I'm writing this for myself. Being this weight is killing me, and I know that everyone tells me I look great and I'm healthy, but I want someone to tell me I'm thin that omg I'm so skinny they wish they looked like me. But noone would ever say that because I'm an ugly fat fuck. And all my friends are prettier than me so than I feel even more ugly, not to mention that two of my best friends are wiked skinny.
But the thing is I cant not eat it will crush everyone. I remember when this all started and michelle caught on she said she was going to tell my mom, and I begged her not to, noone is going to listen this time. But I have to because this weight is digusting the other day it went up to 113.4 I've never even been that fat till than. And I obvs know that I say I just wanna be 100 but it'll turn into 95 which will turm into 90 but I dont know if I can even do it this time.
I love Paul more than anything and I love my family and friends I just cant be this weight anymore.
I look at other girls everywhere I go and think wow shes pretty and thin I wish I was her I just want to stop I want someone to think that of me.